Monday, December 14, 2015

This is a Hard Week

So it's finals this week. Which means things are not good emotionally or mentally. I am preparing and studying right now for my political science exam tomorrow. I should've started studying a lot earlier today, but I was just not feeling it. First I felt physically sick, and then my head was so heavy. I stayed curled up in my bed until 2 this afternoon. Since then I've watched YouTube and tried to study. After this post goes up, I'll be back to actually studying. Wish me luck!

Most college students will tell you how hard finals week is. It's mentally and physically draining, leaving you feeling stressed and sick, just wishing for it to all be over so you can go home and curl up with your family. I know that when I get home Friday or Saturday, the first thing I'm doing is curling up on the couch with my mom and watching Netflix until I fall asleep. Then I'll sleep until Christmas.

My Christmas break is about a month, though it's shorter this year than last. I go home this weekend (I haven't started packing yet) and I'll be there until the Sunday after Christmas day. Jon and I are still trying to figure out what we're doing for the holiday, but he only has three days home so it's hard to decide what we're going to do. On that Sunday, I'll be driving out to San Marcos to spend a week with him. I'm mostly going because my mom will be visiting her family and I don't want to stay at the house. After New Year's I'll come back and spend the rest of my time with friends. Then I'm coming back to school as soon as the dorms open so that I can work a couple days before school starts.

Though finals can be a really tough time, it's important to stay confident and stay calm. Find the people and things that make you happy and focus on them when you get upset or stressed. For me, I have YouTube, Jon, and my friends... and my mom of course. I also try to focus on writing and reading because they always have a way of making me feel better, taking me to a whole other world where I don't have to worry about exams and packing and dealing with people in general.

Good luck to everyone else going through exams right now, or that recently went through them. Believe in yo fresh self.
Kaylee

Monday, November 30, 2015

YouTube and Me

I've always liked YouTube, using it to find tutorials, watch movie trailers, and whatever video had gone viral recently. It was last year, during my freshman year of college that I was inducted into the real world of YouTube, into Let’s Players, vloggers, and lots of sketches. Chey (my roommate of two years) and her boyfriend introduced me to games. I don’t consider myself a “gamer,” but I do like to play, and I definitely like to watch cute, funny idiots play videogames.


The first person they showed me was Markiplier (https://www.youtube.com/user/markiplierGAME), when he was playing the first Five Nights at Freddy’s. I did not like him at first. I found his voice annoying and I thought that he was rather childish. That same week, I went to visit Jon and I showed him the videos because I thought they were his style (they were). By the end of that month, Chey, Alex, and I had a nightly ritual of watching Mark’s videos. My love for him had begun to grow.
Besides Markiplier, I found some other gamers and sketch artists I really liked.
YouTube is the getaway for a shitty drug. No matter who I watch, be it Mark or either of the Jacks, I smile and laugh. My introduction into YouTube really couldn’t have come at a better time. When you struggle with things like depression and anxiety, it’s important to find things that calm you down and make you happy. These boys are saving my life, and many others’, just by being themselves and doing what they love. As a sophomore in college, it’s nice to have an escape from things like homework, professors, roommates, and work. It’s important to find things and people you can depend on, and hold onto through the hard times.


I’m an actress, I can memorize a script and walk onto a stage, and I’m golden. But write out a few topic points and talk to a camera? I freeze up. I made a YouTube channel (where I posted videos) back in the ninth grade. It sucked ass. On the bright side, it taught me I couldn’t do vlogs until I was more comfortable in front of a camera. And although I’m not comfortable enough to just blab about myself and my life aloud, I am very relaxed talking about books, people, movies, and my blog. Easy things to script, right?


Beginning after Christmas, I will attempt to record and queue up some videos and vlogs on my YouTube channel. I’m not doing this recognition or views, this is for me. This is about experience, gaining confidence, and networking. When I get my first video up, I will post the link on the blog, my Twitter, and Google+.


Thank you for the support and patience; let’s hope this will be a productive and enriching holiday season.


Stay fresh!

Kaylee 

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

I'm dealing with a lot of shit right now. I'm stressed beyond belief, my anxiety is on high, and I'm recovering from a cold. I was hoping to introduce a new layout and plan for blog posts, last week, but time has slipped away from me. This weekend was rough cause I was working doubles and closing, and last week I was getting a cold. I'm trying my hardest to start writing posts earlier and then putting them in a queue, but I have to find the time to write in bulk first. 

This weekend is my anniversary so I'll have a little downtime in order for me to relax, play some games, write, and read. I'll also get to see my love, so I should be in much higher spirits. It'll be three years on Sunday. 

Hopefully I'll be able to post a blog on Monday. But no promises. 

Have a great week. 

Thursday, November 05, 2015

I haven't had time to write the two posts I had planned for this week. I will be writing and posting them tomorrow, some time in the afternoon. 

Monday, October 19, 2015

Update 36802 of 36802

The random title is because that's what my laptop is glaring at me right at this moment. 

Unfortunately, this small ass post is today's blog post. Due to stress and life and all those wonderful things, I'll be cutting back my posts to every other Monday. I have to do this, even if I don't want to. My life is beyond hectic right now and my combined anxiety and depression is at an all time high (in the bad way). 

I'm sorry to do this, for those of you who have stuck this crap out with me, but I really can't see another option. But, on the bright side, because I'm cutting back on posts, I'll probably be able to write bigger and better ones, it'll just be less often. 

So not the next Monday, but the one after that, I'll be posting another book appreciation post. If any of you are Meg Canot fans, be sure to tune back in, in two weeks. 

That's all for now. Have a fresh night and week!
Kaylee

Monday, October 05, 2015

Photography (Appreciation..?)

Okay so remember like a long time ago when I posted a bunch of old pictures? Well I'm posting a bunch of pictures again, but this time they're a lot more recent. I hope you guys enjoy them. Have a fresh week! 

Kaylee


Around campus. 


Leaves in fall on campus. 


Chair at a second hand store. 


Drive to my cousins. 

Monday, September 28, 2015

This Week We Discuss Books.

I've tried over a hundred times to write a blog post, but nothing would come to me. It was like the energy to create just didn't exist for a while. But, while my writing has been on the fritz, my reading and photographing muses have been singing. At Christmastime, I started rereading one of my favorite book series of all time: The Gemma Doyle Trilogy, by the all-powerful Libba Bray.
http://libbabray.com/
This would be the first time I've read these books again, since I was in seventh grade. That's nearly seven years! It took me from Christmas until this past weekend to finish the first one, which is only 400 pages long! I imagine it took so long for several reasons: I got bored (hard for me to admit), I had school and sorority, and I was busy being with my boyfriend. Luckily, I did finish the damned thing and moved onto the sequel (600 pages), Saturday. I finished that this morning and then proceeded to grab the last book off my shelf (800 pages).

It's also very interesting that I'm reading this (my favorite book series) at the beginning of the semester, because last fall, I reread my second favorite book series, by a talented Mrs. Rosemary Clement-Moore (https://readrosemary.wordpress.com/). Who I actually have met! Almost all of the books that I own by her (which is nearly all the YA books she's published) are signed (in person!) copies.

Both of these women writers, Bray and Clement-Moore, are my role models. They're beautiful, strong, courageous, and they write in such a fashion and in such lines that I wish to be the main character. Not to give spoilers, but both series revolve around a young girl who has just discovered powers inside herself that she's not sure how to control. In Bray's trilogy, Gemma is a young girl (just turned 16) who was raised in Victorian era British-ruled India, but pretty soon in the book is moved to England for school. Clement-Moore's books detail a slightly older girl named Maggie who attends a present day high school. Both girls must battle demons, while facing rocky friendships, growing up, and finding out who they truly are (and romancing hot guys).

I love these books with all my heart. If posting this gets anyone out there interested in either the authors or the books, great! I would feel more than accomplished at getting these authors' names out there and these wonderful books noticed. Read them! Follow them! Live the lives of two young girls just trying to make their way through this cruel and craggy world. I love books, y'all!

That's it, rant over.
Kaylee

PS- I got a job!

Sunday, August 30, 2015

Classes... Tomorrow

Well I'm back at school. Yay..? My room looks cute (of course), and my roommate (Chey again) is still basically moving in. Classes begin tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it. I mean, my classes are fine, almost all of them are things I really want to take, but the problem is actually going to and sitting through classes. Of course I only have three classes and one of them is cancelled, but one of them is also a night class. For two hours. Ugh.

Also tomorrow we have our first sorority meeting. And like I said before, because of my night class, I won't be able to go to a lot of them. And tomorrow is the first example of that. I'll be able to meet with the executive board tomorrow before my class and get things done, but it's definitely not the same as actually sitting through a meeting with everyone and seeing them all again.

Saying goodbye to my mom was hard, like it always is, but she's already planning on coming and visiting soon. She also got to stay an extra night, which is amazing. But we aren't even able to talk because her phone bill wasn't able to get paid this month. Now we're just waiting for her to be able to pay it. I can't believe how much I already miss her and I just wanna be able to talk to her. Oh well, guess I'll just have to wait.

I think I missed Chey and Alex more than I thought I did. It's only the second day in and it's like the great times of last year all over again. Tonight we've laughed a lot, made great dirty jokes, and created a "Dirty Mind" headband. Mostly it's stayed on Alex's head, but once it almost made its way to my forehead. I think this might be a good year... besides, you know, classes.

Also, I posted this a day early so I wouldn't forget tomorrow.
Kaylee

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Soon it Ends

I'll be leaving for school tomorrow and I'm so totally mixed up about it. While it's exciting to be headed back to Nac, and to see all my friends again, I'm definitely gonna miss home. It's hard being away from everybody, especially my mom. But at the same time, it'll be nice to be away from her for a little bit.

I had lunch with my brother, sister-in-law, and niece today. When we said our goodbyes I almost cried. Home is where my family is, and while I have a new family in Nac and a lot of friends, these are the most important people in my life. Split between my family, my friends, and my boyfriend, I wish I could us all on an island and pretend it's normal. I'm excited for dorm life, sorority, and school, I swear... but nothing beats sitting at home with my mom and Jon.

Speaking of, boyfriend and I have been on crazy terms recently. We've fought a lot. He started classes on Monday, and is working his new job. It's like I never talk to him anymore. It's been really hard trying to stay positive when I miss him so much and am feeling abandoned. He's decided I'm gonna drive out to him during labor day weekend. He said he'd pay for my gas so I couldn't help but agree. But god, I miss him so much. I cry almost every day because it's so hard being away from him. Every chance I get to see him I'm going to take. I can't wait for summer to come back around.

Hopefully getting a job in Nac won't take too long. I'm gonna apply to any and every place, especially places where I already have friends. I have to have a job this semester with mom and I having car payments and insurance. It's going to be hard and I have to put off theatre again, but I know I could use the job force experience.

When it comes to school, I'm most excited for my English class. While the topic isn't the best, I heard my teacher absolutely loves what he teaches, and he's amazing. That's really important to me when it comes to teachers. If they don't love what they do, or aren't visibly enjoying what they're teaching, I hate the class. I want someone to teach me who likes what they're doing, and better yet, adores it beyond anything. I guess I like that so much, because that's the kind of teacher I want to be. Nothing inspires students more, than the teachers who love what they're doing.

Y'all stay fresh y'all.
Kaylee

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Fine.

That's how I feel. 
I feel fine. 
Not good, not bad, not angry, not even okay. 
I'm just fine. 
That's how it's going to stay. 

Wednesday, August 05, 2015

Time to Talk

Well I'm home. I've certainly missed it, especially my little puppy. It's great being home, but I'm sure gonna miss spending my summer with my boyfriend in our own little place. Jon is still home, at his mom's, but he'll be going back Wednesday morning with a moving truck and a bunch of furniture from his grandparents. I don't even know what I'm gonna when he leaves. He means so much to me and helps me out so much with my anxiety and my depression... It's just gonna be really hard not being by his side every day, like I was during the summer. I guess I just gotta learn to readjust all over again.

So I have a few weeks home before I gotta go back to school. Remember back in the day when I was trying to sell my car? Well... that didn't happen. So instead we started looking at dealerships online. Luckily I found one right away. It was a 2004 Honda, a hatchback like what I wanted, and looked super cute. It was also affordable for my mom and I. Unfortunately, it had over 150,000 miles and the dealership people weren't very friendly. But I did really like the car, so we started talking numbers. Well it turned out that the dealership wouldn't be willing to help us with financing, so as we sat waiting on the guy to bring us more information, I looked up another dealership.

This turned out to be a great idea. Online I found a 2003 Ford that was $200 cheaper and had almost 20,000 less miles. So we headed over to that dealer and test drove it . It was horrible. It was kinda small, it shook, and and the brakes were scary slow to stop the car. I hated it. I was scared to drive it when we took it out. So the guy took us around the lot to look at cars. My mom and I decided on the same one. It's a 2004 Dodge Durango. It's huge, it's pretty, and it only has 98,000 miles on it. The biggest problems with it were the price (almost $10,000) and gas mileage (14/19 -_-). However, after sitting down and talking numbers with this dealership, we not only got the price down, but the payments ended up being exactly $1 less than what mom wrote down that we could afford. Everything is turning out perfect, and if everything goes right, we'll be picking up the car tomorrow (Wednesday). So please send positive thoughts, vibes, and prayers.

Tomorrow I'll be saying goodbye to my love for over a month, I'll be starting a new journey with a new car, and I'll be taking time to start organizing and packing for college. Even though I don't want to do it, it's the best thing to do. Wish me luck as I start on my pile of stuff!

Peace out nerds;)
Kaylee

Monday, July 27, 2015

Yay!

Well, Jon had another interview today. They're bringing him back in for a second interview later this week. Also, we got approved for the apartment. Which is great... Except the move-in date isn't until  August 5th, and we have to be out of our current apartment this week. And besides all that, I go home August 7th, so I'm not even going to have real time to decorate the new place. And I've been looking up ideas non-stop! 

A thing I did last week was apply for the Torrid Model Search. I'm thinking I'm not likely to be chosen, but it's still something fun and it gets me out there and exploring an avenue of work I really love. When I go home in August, I'll be attending a casting call for Torrid. This is frightening for me because I have no idea what to expect or even what to do when I get there. I hate crowds but I'm the only one holding myself back, right? But I don't even know what to wear!

I'm surprisingly so ready to start buying school supplies and school clothes, even though I'm not ready for school cause, ya know... It's school. Although I think what excitement I do feel can really just be chalked up to me loving new things. Especially clothes... *drools thinking about new clothes*

Well, I'm excited about the changes coming up for us, even if they're not all that positive. Change is really the only thing that matters. Keep us in your thoughts. 

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Snowcones and Writing Block

As it is summer (though very near the end), and I am a sensible person, snowcones are THE way to celebrate not being in school. Since summer began, I've had exactly one snowcone and it was earlier this week. It was also possibly the best snowcone I've ever had. There's this lot of food trucks in downtown, including one called Mambo Ice, where we got my snowcone. They're a little pricey and kinda surrounded by honey bees, but the product is top notch. I got a Blueberry Daiquiri (no alcohol of course), and it turned my mouth blue. The flavor was totally worth it.

Besides snowcones and being a few days late on the blog, we finally found a place. It's a little on the expensive side for him, but the space is nice and really close to campus. It's gonna be an adjustment, but I think it could really be worth it. Before we settled on that place, we were looking at a cheap efficiency with two rooms, a small kitchen, and small bathroom. Despite not being a lot of space, the place had charm. I think for a girl and her pet, it could be great. Honestly I kinda wish I coulda lived in the place by myself with my dog. I feel like I could have turned the place into a nice hovel for me and my baby.

My writing mood is horrible. Every day I want to write, but when I actually get up the enthusiasm to pull Word up, nothing comes out. Probably the same reason I can't get these posts out on time. Nothing flows through my head onto the page. I wish this writing block would just go away.
I miss writing and inventing characters and just... I don't know, I guess creating. It'd be nice to even just start writing on an old piece. I'd love to actually just finish something.

Guess my goal before end of summer is have another snowcone from Mambo Ice, and maybe just finish (or start) another story. But I guess we'll have to see...

That is all. Kaylee.

Monday, July 13, 2015

Lazy Kitty Day

Most of today I have spent in bed, curled up in a ball, while Jon runs errands and takes care of groceries. The entire day has been in a stay in bed and cuddle the cat day. Though she isn't as sweet as she appears, she's spent the day curled up at my side as we slept and waited for dad to come back. 


Well things are going well job wise for Jon (fingers crossed). It looks like he'll be getting a job that will also provide us with healthy, cheap food. I've been applying for babysitting jobs everyday and am still applying for retail jobs. However, I've been applying for jobs in Nac for when school starts up again. Gotta be prepared, ya'know? 

We're also still looking for a place for Jon. He'll be kicked out of his apartment at the end of this month, which means we need to get him into a place ASAP. Which is unfortunate because he can't afford very much, meaning it's hard to find a 1 Bed/1 Bath for him. Which of course means he'll end up in an apartment with roommates, exactly what he's trying to get away from. 

I've been in an extreme writing mood recently but can't think of anything to write about. My dreams have provided interesting ideas, but they seem to slip away too fast. Reading has also been calling to me, but my one book I have with me isn't keeping my attention too well. 

Well that's all I have for now. Aren't you proud of me for posting on schedule? 

Wednesday, July 08, 2015

26 Days Later...

I don't know why it takes me so long to get back to this freaking blog. I completely blame Jon. I haven't been able to secure a job yet, but Jon has a second interview on Friday morning. Positive thoughts and vibes please! We could really use the money.

My mom and I have decided to sell my car and use the money to put down on a newer car. So if any of y'all are interested in a '96 Lexus with a few problems, please let me know!-_- I know the car I want but I'm nervous that my car won't get a bid or that no one will be interested. I mean it's a great car, it drives beautifully, and the A/C is God's gift to Texas, but there are just things wrong with it that I'm not able to fix, things I can't afford to fix.

We've also been looking at places for Jon. We're going to actually see with our eyes some places tomorrow. He found a 1 Bed/1 Bath for cheap and a studio that isn't too bad. We were really hoping to get in on his friends' duplex since they just moved into a bigger house, but his roommates have decided to go somewhere else, so he's left looking for somewhere cheap but comfortable.

Our eating habits haven't been too bad since I moved in, but not moving around much, or working, or even simply leaving the house has left the both of us gaining weight from laziness. This week we decided to start working out, but haven't started yet. But I feel positive we'll start soon. Neither of us are feeling good about ourselves, and I think that will help with motivation.

Okay, well that's all my news. Have a good night!

Friday, June 12, 2015

Looking Up?

So last week kinda sucked. If you read my post, you know why. This week however, things might be looking up. I have gotten two responses for jobs. One is a nanny gig and the other is a clothing store. While the nanny job would pay more, and probably be loads more fun, I think the job will be during the school year, and I won't be here during that time. But the clothing store job will still be cool. And hopefully I'll get a discount.

Jon is still looking. We're hoping for a manager position at the movie theater, but if that doesn't work out, I have a lot of jobs saved for him to apply to. Now it's just a matter of him actually doing it.

I'm hoping either one of the jobs works out. I need it, and I'm tired of being afraid that we don't have enough for food or gas, or even a little for fun.

I've also been down on myself a lot more recently. I can tell I've gained weight, and it isn't helping with my already low view of myself. There's a gym in the apartment but I don't feel comfortable going alone, and he'd never go with me. The only thing he wants to do is walk but that does nothing for me. I need actual exercising and work outs. But he doesn't understand that.

Sorry for cutting it short, but the writing bug just has not bitten me today.

Have a good night.

Saturday, June 06, 2015

Sorry

I know it's been quite a while since I last posted anything. Life has sent me through quite a lot of twists and turns recently. I somehow made it through my freshman year of college unscathed except by my own human stupidity. I won't reveal my grades, except for two: English and US History, in which both I got an A. So I'm very proud of those grades, though everything else makes them basically obsolete. I'm mad at myself, but I already went over that in another post.

So life is really hard right now. Just over a week ago I officially moved in with Jon for the summer. While it's been great being here, the trip here, the arguments, and the lack of jobs/money, hasn't been wonderful.

I was only an hour in on my trip down here when I hit something in the road and blew out two of my tires. The money I had earned working with my dad ended up going to pay for two new tires and a lugnut key for my tires since my original one was broken. Which everyone found surprising... but not me, because the car is almost 20 years old and falling apart. Nothing can be right on it.

The arguments have been plenty, however they're not nearly as bad as they could be. For the first week, we fought every day, but they've died down immensely. I'm happy here, with him and the kitty. Although there is a possibility of us having to move because his apartment people suck. Apparently, if you don't resign your lease immediately after they give notice (even if your lease isn't up until August), they open your room up for other people to move into at the beginning of the new lease cycle. It's very annoying. I just got everything moved in, and now we may have to pack everything back up again.

Jobs wise, I've applied to about 10 and am now just waiting and hoping for something to happen. His end of the search has been slower, but he did go out and apply at the movie theater. Please send good vibes and positive thoughts our way. I know I'd really appreciate it.

Well that's iIcan say for now. it's super late and I unfortunately do need sleep to process.

Sleep tight and stay fresh,
Kaylee

Thursday, May 07, 2015

Hellooo

So Monday I went to the lake. A friend of mine was having a really tough time emotionally, so after classes, she invited me and a couple other friends out to the lake around Nac. I didn't wear a bathing suit so I didn't do any swimming, but she brought this little boat we aired up. For the first hour I sat on the bank, two girls in the boat, and our other friend who was keeping them from floating away. I didn't mind being alone. No phone to distract me, but I got to see everything. Sometimes I forget how much I love just watching, just seeing.

One of my biggest passions is photography. I think that passion has offered me insight into seeing beyond the skin of things. To really appreciate something, you have to look beyond its outward appearance. Life is about more than skin, it's about what's underneath, what's inside a person, or a thing. Of course I don't mean literally inside. The emotions, the feelings, the thoughts, the ideas. And with buildings, nature, objects, it's about what their story is. The process of making it. Their lives.

Sitting on that bank, I just watched my friends, the water, the sky, and I appreciated every single second of it. It's so liberating just watching. You don't have to think, you don't have to talk. I could spend my whole life just watching and seeing.

Anyway, on to more boring things. I have finals next week. This weekend I get to go see my best friend in Galveston. We're gonna spend the weekend on the beach, tanning and talking. I'm so excited for the rest weekend before all my finals kill me. I'm so not looking forward to this next week. I already know I've failed two classes and I feel like shit about myself because of them. I could have done so much better, tried harder in those classes, and I would've succeeded. Jon is suggesting I do online classes during the summer to retake them. I just might.

The best thing about school ending in a week is that I'll be home. I miss my mom and my family so much. And then after a week and a half, I'll be moving to San Marcos to live with Jon. I'm really excited to see what this summer will bring for us. It'll be our first time really living like adults. I'll also be looking for jobs. I've never had a PAYING job, only volunteer work and working construction for my dad. But that stuff doesn't have a place on an application, so employers won't look at me twice.

Speaking of jobs, if any of you guys know of places that are hiring in San Marcos, Texas, please feel free to email me. I could really use the help, the experience, and I'll need one cause I have to start saving to get a new car and pay off loans when I graduate. You can find my email on the About Me page.

Stay fresh, stay cool,
Kaylee

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

I don't know what to do. It's like when we're in person, everything is great and wonderful. But if we aren't around each other, if we're those four and a half hours apart, nothing is the same. It's all gone. The emotions, the feelings, the love. It's like it disappeared right under our fingertips.

I want to love him. I want him to love me. And I want to be together more than anything. But all this time apart feels like it's tearing us apart.

Sometimes I have a hard time even telling him I love him anymore. Cause I feel like he doesn't see it or doesn't read it. I don't to feel like that. But it happens every day.

I'm trying to figure out if I should tell him or just keep it to myself. It's so hard to understand and I don't want to hurt him, but I have to do something. I can't continue to feel like this. It's horrible and driving me crazy. I'm tired of crying and being scared all the time. I just want things to be okay. I want things to be nice and normal and back to regular. I don't want to feel like it's going away or fading out. I want to feel that love forever.

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

It's hard being green..

So today my boyfriend probably had the most adult experience of his life: he couldn't find his tax forms. They weren't on the computer, in his email, they weren't anywhere. So my suggestion? To ask his mom. Apparently that's the worst option of all time. He didn't want to ask her "again" because he felt as though he was "failing at being an adult." I didn't know what to say back to him for the longest time. Then the words came to me and I responded that he wasn't a failure and that it was his first time really being on his own. Then I said that he shouldn't feel ashamed to call his mom for help, cause I called mine crying at least once a week. After about ten minutes he triumphantly texted: "I FOUND THEM!! FUCK YEAH!!!" and everything was right in the universe once again.

But this whole situation got me thinking. Why are we so afraid of asking for help? As children we're encouraged to ask for help and to not be afraid to ask questions. At what point do we start to believe that it makes us immature and dumb to ask for anything?

I have the hardest time asking teachers for help. I know I do. But that comes from years of training myself that what I ask is stupid. Do other people do that too? Is it just instilled in us during junior high that we can't ask questions anymore?

This post is filled to the brim with questions maybe no one can answer. It's such a wonderful and big world we live in. It's our duty to get out there and find out everything we can about it. But we can't do that without asking questions or asking for help.

No one should feel ashamed to ask their mother for help because they lost something "again." No one should fear asking the teacher a questions, even if it's a simple one. They always say there are no stupid questions, but people will turn around and say that's stupid. But it isn't. Questions are important. Without questions there would be no scientific discoveries, we wouldn't know about cultures, or languages, or what's on the moon. Without questions we can't ask for help. Without help, we can't achieve anything.

No one is alone in this world. I'm making it my goal from now on to ask questions, even if I'm scared. It's my duty to educate myself and to help myself, and others, understand this world. I believe that no question is stupid.

No one should be afraid.

Tuesday, April 07, 2015

Pictures

So last week I said I might post some pictures of the most influential places I've ever been. Red Valley, Arizona is where I found my writing voice and where my journey toward a traveler began. So here are some of my favorite pictures of my last visit to the mountain and desert reservation. I hope you enjoy them.





Photo cred to myself.

Kaylee

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

I Love to Write

Today's Google picture is probably one of my favorite of all time. I love the Eiffel Tower. I've never been to Paris or France (or even out of the country), but I've always wanted to see those places. As a writer (and a photographer) I love traveling, pictures, people, and experiencing different cultures. Though I haven't been many places that are different from my every day life, my passion for writing didn't begin until my first mission trip to a Navajo Reservation. We camped on a mountain for a week and it was gorgeous out there. It was sorta like being in two places at once. We'd go down the mountain and be in the desert, but as soon as the elevation began to rise, there were pine trees and green every where. The view from our bluff was unbelievable. Maybe I'll upload a picture some other time.

This post may already seem haywire and like I'm telling five different different stories at once, but I promise I'm not. My point is to touch on the fact that my life goal is to see the world. But not only to travel and eat and meet people, but I want to write about it. I love writing, I love talking and I love eating (my thighs can attest to that). My dream come true would be to travel and write about my experiences.

The reason I mentioned the Google homepage picture is because Paris is the one place I've ALWAYS wanted to see. I know the French tend to hate the Americans and I don't know a bit of French, but it's always been beautiful to me. The day I get to set foot into Paris, the day I can climb to the top of the Eiffel Tower, that day I would be able to die beyond happy and content.

My point in all this is just to highlight my love of writing and traveling. Again, my life goal is to the world, the cultures, the food, the people, and all the amazing sights that are in this world. I want to write about them, document them, put my stamp in magazines and journals and show people what is out there. Instead of reading about people's adventures, I want to write them, I want to live them.

I want to be all I've ever wanted. And that's fresh. Just like you.

Google Homepage, March 31, 2015

Monday, March 23, 2015

Back in Green

So last week was Spring Break. I spent half of it with my mom and half with Jon. It went by incredibly too fast, but it was still nice to get an entire week off from school and away from all the stress it brings. In just a week and a half, I will be at Jon's again for almost a week during Easter Break. And then the next weekend I'll be home again for my mom's birthday. Just a month after that, we will be completing finals and then school will be over and I'll be in the Austin area for the summer.

I could stay on campus for Easter Break, but it would end up costing more than just going to Jon's. Besides, if I don't see him then, I won't see him at all again until I move in for the summer. And that's not flying with me.

The week before Spring Break, we had midterms. I made 90 or above on every single one.. except for Algebra. I'm honestly worried about failing it, but it just doesn't click. I'd ask for a tutor, but there are none left this late in the school year and I can't compute what the teacher says, so seeing her isn't an option. I'm just praying for this semester to end on a good note. My goal was to get my GPA up, but I'm very worried Algebra is going to bring it way down.

On a brighter note, sorority stuff is going well. I'm feeling good about it and all the girls are so lovely. I definitely feel it was a good choice for me. Sometimes it feels like it's taking up too much time, but in the end, it'll be worth it.

Okay, well, that's all for now. Send positive vibes my way y'all.

Stay super cool and super fresh,
Kaylee

Saturday, February 21, 2015

It's Been Awhile...

I know it's been a very long time. I keep thinking about posting but then I just couldn't find the inspiration to write. Things have been weird lately, but not in a bad way. So I guess now I'll share some updates:
1. Jon and I got to spend most of Christmas Break together and it was wonderful. I stayed with him for a week and I'm so looking forward to this summer! During the summer, we'll have been together for two and a half years. It's so crazy that we're almost to three years already.
2. I turned 19! Whoa, right?
3. I decided to rush a sorority and I made it! But I won't be initiated until the beginning of May.
4. Valentine's Day was wonderful. I went to visit Jon and we stayed in most of the weekend, only traveling out of his room for food.
Well that's all my news. I miss writing on this blog but things have been hectic since the new semester started. I'll do my best to remember I need to update this thing.

Be cool and stay neat,
Kaylie