02/26/2017

                                     

         

Obviously it's been a long time since my last post. Which really sucks cause I know I said I was trying to post a whole bunch more. And honestly, it's the same excuse it always is. Work and school and not feeling like it. I know how lame that is and how much I suck at things. However, I really, honestly haven't had the time. Every time a post came to mind, I was in the middle of responsibilities.

But now let's talk about what's happened in all the time that has passed.

Math Class
Mom and I have been in the class for about a month now. We had our first test at the beginning of this month, and I'm pretty happy with how I did, but I do wish my grade had been a bit higher. The homework is straight forward and mostly a clone of what she teaches us in class. But, I have noticed through my multiple math classes, that it's very common to see problems you've never encountered in class. And that can be super annoying, and it causes a whole bunch of anxiety.

Blog Changes
Right away you'll notice change. The background has been done up, and there's no title on posts from now on. Also the actual blog title has been changed. Instead, I'm going to be making these graphic things. I love them, plus they are super cute. There's more I'd like to do to jazz the blog up, but I don't think I'll be able to do it with Blogger. Which means, sometime in the future, we could end up moving blog sites. Probably to WordPress or maybe Wix. One of my favorite YouTubers has a blog, and that's where a lot of my inspiration for change is coming from (https://marziaslife.com/).

For so long I've been trying to figure out what to do with this blog. Do I make it a photography blog, a book blog, a mix of everything? Most of the time it just ends up being update posts because it's been so long since I posted. Marzia's blog is a good example of the kind of posts I would like to share on this blog. Just snippets of life, and what I've done that week. Definitely check her blog out! It's super cute and the pugs are the best.

Life
My birthday was last month! I turned 21 y'all! For my birthday weekend, my boyfriend and I stayed in a hotel in San Marcos for the PAX South convention. I'll post something about it at a later time because I have a lot to say and pictures to share.

I also saw him last weekend for a late Valentine's celebration. We had dinner at the same place we ate at last year. Just as good as before.

I thought I had more life update to share but most of my news was about the blog changes.
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Alright that's it!
Kaylee

Hi Friends

I was going to write a post about how things have been recently, but too much has happened for me to put in a simple post right now. I literally don't have the patience. So instead, I thought I would do something fun.

A lot of you are my family and friends, but I know that I do also get audience from Google+ and Twitter, possibly from people who don't know me that well. Even my friends and family may not know me that well. So I'm going to talk about myself, give some facts, maybe some favorites, and a little about my life. Things that you don't already know obviously.

• My name is Kaylynn, but on the blog I go by Kaylee. On my other social media, it's Kaylie. "Kaylee" is my dad's spelling of the name, and when I first created the blog, I wanted to distance my every day life from it. But now I believe it is a part of me. So I embrace Kaylee and Kaylie. 
• If you want to find me on social media, my username for almost everything is kaylie153. My Tumblr is keeperkeys. 
• I am 20 years old, and impatiently awaiting my 21st.
• I have four pets at home: Little Dog, the long haired chihuahua; Zou-Zou (or Kitty), the cat; Gizmo, the shih tzu; and Cassidy, the German Shepherd mix.
• I live in Texas, born and raised.
• I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost 3 and a half years.
• There are over ten cities on my list of places I want to live for at least six months. (Idea for a blog post?)
• My favorite color is purple.
• My favorite number is 9 because it was my favorite age. 
• My friends mean everything to me.
• Here's something I really don't want my mom to see: I'm Agnostic.
• I love all music except rap. Well most rap anyway.
• I'm pretty good with trivia. Jon and I are beasts at Heads Up.
• I want a YouTube channel more and more every day.
• I want to publish a book.
• I want to graduate college before I'm 27. (By the way I changed it again. There will be a post about it soon!)
• Sometimes my posts are late because I get too depressed to write anything.
• My favorite video games are Dynasty Warriors 4 and Max Payne (the first one) because they were games my brothers introduced me to.
• I look up to my brothers even when they're idiots.
• My mom is my best friend.
• Not counting my best friends and Jon.
• There's a lot I want to do in life and I'm so afraid I won't accomplish anything.

Well there's some things. It looks really long but there could've been more. I didn't know how detailed or what things were appropriate. Plus I don't know who all will read this, so I couldn't put some of the things on here that I feel are funny or important about me. While this might be boring, I hope it can show you a bit more about me, my person, and hopefully open up a dialogue between us if you found something of interest. I tried not to repeat myself about some things, so I didn't bother listing that I love books, movies, and photography. 

Expect the post about major change/SCAD soon!

Stay fresh y'all!

Kaylee

In Which Kaylee Describes Her Awesome Week

Soooo, some pretty cool stuff happened to me the past two weeks. First is that I purchased a plane ticket for South Padre. I haven't been on a plane since I was in the forth grade, so this is going to be quite an experience for me. Luckily the flight is only about an hour and a half. I'm very excited to see my cousin soon. Though I only get a few days with her, it's going to be awesome. And hopefully, by next summer, I can make my way out there again. Then we can go out to bars, and have a real Padre experience.

Second, I got my writing mojo back. I'm actually writing again -sparsely- and it feels so good. I get excited to write these posts, and I write them early because I want to get it all out. This feeling, and energy for writing is so good. I hope it decides to stay for a while.

Third, I read two books in about a week and a half! I'd been nibbling my way through Remembrance (by Meg Cabot, http://www.megcabot.com/) and was under halfway through, when all of a sudden on Monday I started chomping at it. By Tuesday I was over halfway done, and then at 5 AM, early on Wednesday morning, I finished the book, tears forming in my eyes. By lunch that day, I was nearly halfway through another book. I didn't get much time for reading on Thursday or Friday, but between the hours of 12 AM and 3 AM on Saturday morning, I finished Howl's Moving Castle (by Diana Wynne Jones, it's also a Studio Ghibli anime). It was my second time reading this book, and god did I pick up on things a lot more clearly. I'd love to do a thorough analysis and critic of the book. I might start it later this week and post it on the blog.

Fourth, the most important.... Two of my famous people actually noticed me. I tweeted out after I finished Remembrance about how great it was, and Meg Cabot, the real one, actually liked my tweet. Not only that, but she also followed me! (I'm sure it's publicists or whatever, but let me DREAM.)

And then early this morning (it's currently 3:30 AM), I took a picture of a poster my friends found and tweeted out to Toby Turner (better known as Tobuscus on YouTube, https://www.youtube.com/user/Tobuscus) and he liked it! I know it was actually him and not a publicist because he's not famous enough yet to need someone to monitor his social media. And that makes it even cooler!

While those things may seem small, they make me incredibly happy. It was such an experience to realize that people you consider to be rock stars and celebrities actually took the time to notice you for ten seconds. I felt so good, and that's what matters.

Y'all have a great day.
Kaylee

Some New Things

Alright so I am no longer inactive in my sorority. Since this is going to be my last semester at SFA I wanted to be active and a part of the girls who mean so much to me. I'm also going to get a Little. Yeah I won't be there for her active years but I'll still have someone who can look up to me and I can visit for banquets and formals. I'm seeking alumniship so that I don't have to just drop the sorority. This way I can still be a part and be kinda active through the years. 

This also means I have officially decided to leave SFA after this semester. I'll be going home to finish my basics at our community college and then I'll start applying for other schools but the main focus is on SCAD. I have a bunch of ideas for how I'm going to build up my portfolio. I'm really excited for this entire process to begin. 

I actually get to see Jon. We'll be spending Valentine's weekend together. I'm super excited. I haven't seen him in over a month. I miss him so much. It'll be really nice to see my babe. 

I bought two books on Sunday night, and I just bought two more last night. I don't need them but I do need them, ya know? Oh and I'll be buying a new laptop on Thursday. The cover is starting to split on mine so I'm getting scared of using it. Hopefully the new one will last as long as this one did. We had a good five years together. That's pretty impressive for technology. 

Anyway, that's it for now. Sorry this is late. 

Kaylee 

This is a Hard Week

So it's finals this week. Which means things are not good emotionally or mentally. I am preparing and studying right now for my political science exam tomorrow. I should've started studying a lot earlier today, but I was just not feeling it. First I felt physically sick, and then my head was so heavy. I stayed curled up in my bed until 2 this afternoon. Since then I've watched YouTube and tried to study. After this post goes up, I'll be back to actually studying. Wish me luck!

Most college students will tell you how hard finals week is. It's mentally and physically draining, leaving you feeling stressed and sick, just wishing for it to all be over so you can go home and curl up with your family. I know that when I get home Friday or Saturday, the first thing I'm doing is curling up on the couch with my mom and watching Netflix until I fall asleep. Then I'll sleep until Christmas.

My Christmas break is about a month, though it's shorter this year than last. I go home this weekend (I haven't started packing yet) and I'll be there until the Sunday after Christmas day. Jon and I are still trying to figure out what we're doing for the holiday, but he only has three days home so it's hard to decide what we're going to do. On that Sunday, I'll be driving out to San Marcos to spend a week with him. I'm mostly going because my mom will be visiting her family and I don't want to stay at the house. After New Year's I'll come back and spend the rest of my time with friends. Then I'm coming back to school as soon as the dorms open so that I can work a couple days before school starts.

Though finals can be a really tough time, it's important to stay confident and stay calm. Find the people and things that make you happy and focus on them when you get upset or stressed. For me, I have YouTube, Jon, and my friends... and my mom of course. I also try to focus on writing and reading because they always have a way of making me feel better, taking me to a whole other world where I don't have to worry about exams and packing and dealing with people in general.

Good luck to everyone else going through exams right now, or that recently went through them. Believe in yo fresh self.

Kaylee

Classes... Tomorrow

Well I'm back at school. Yay..? My room looks cute (of course), and my roommate (Chey again) is still basically moving in. Classes begin tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it. I mean, my classes are fine, almost all of them are things I really want to take, but the problem is actually going to and sitting through classes. Of course I only have three classes and one of them is cancelled, but one of them is also a night class. For two hours. Ugh.

Also tomorrow we have our first sorority meeting. And like I said before, because of my night class, I won't be able to go to a lot of them. And tomorrow is the first example of that. I'll be able to meet with the executive board tomorrow before my class and get things done, but it's definitely not the same as actually sitting through a meeting with everyone and seeing them all again.

Saying goodbye to my mom was hard, like it always is, but she's already planning on coming and visiting soon. She also got to stay an extra night, which is amazing. But we aren't even able to talk because her phone bill wasn't able to get paid this month. Now we're just waiting for her to be able to pay it. I can't believe how much I already miss her and I just wanna be able to talk to her. Oh well, guess I'll just have to wait.

I think I missed Chey and Alex more than I thought I did. It's only the second day in and it's like the great times of last year all over again. Tonight we've laughed a lot, made great dirty jokes, and created a "Dirty Mind" headband. Mostly it's stayed on Alex's head, but once it almost made its way to my forehead. I think this might be a good year... besides, you know, classes.

Also, I posted this a day early so I wouldn't forget tomorrow.
Kaylee

Soon it Ends

I'll be leaving for school tomorrow and I'm so totally mixed up about it. While it's exciting to be headed back to Nac, and to see all my friends again, I'm definitely gonna miss home. It's hard being away from everybody, especially my mom. But at the same time, it'll be nice to be away from her for a little bit.

I had lunch with my brother, sister-in-law, and niece today. When we said our goodbyes I almost cried. Home is where my family is, and while I have a new family in Nac and a lot of friends, these are the most important people in my life. Split between my family, my friends, and my boyfriend, I wish I could us all on an island and pretend it's normal. I'm excited for dorm life, sorority, and school, I swear... but nothing beats sitting at home with my mom and Jon.

Speaking of, boyfriend and I have been on crazy terms recently. We've fought a lot. He started classes on Monday, and is working his new job. It's like I never talk to him anymore. It's been really hard trying to stay positive when I miss him so much and am feeling abandoned. He's decided I'm gonna drive out to him during labor day weekend. He said he'd pay for my gas so I couldn't help but agree. But god, I miss him so much. I cry almost every day because it's so hard being away from him. Every chance I get to see him I'm going to take. I can't wait for summer to come back around.

Hopefully getting a job in Nac won't take too long. I'm gonna apply to any and every place, especially places where I already have friends. I have to have a job this semester with mom and I having car payments and insurance. It's going to be hard and I have to put off theatre again, but I know I could use the job force experience.

When it comes to school, I'm most excited for my English class. While the topic isn't the best, I heard my teacher absolutely loves what he teaches, and he's amazing. That's really important to me when it comes to teachers. If they don't love what they do, or aren't visibly enjoying what they're teaching, I hate the class. I want someone to teach me who likes what they're doing, and better yet, adores it beyond anything. I guess I like that so much, because that's the kind of teacher I want to be. Nothing inspires students more, than the teachers who love what they're doing.

Y'all stay fresh y'all.
Kaylee

Time to Talk

Well I'm home. I've certainly missed it, especially my little puppy. It's great being home, but I'm sure gonna miss spending my summer with my boyfriend in our own little place. Jon is still home, at his mom's, but he'll be going back Wednesday morning with a moving truck and a bunch of furniture from his grandparents. I don't even know what I'm gonna when he leaves. He means so much to me and helps me out so much with my anxiety and my depression... It's just gonna be really hard not being by his side every day, like I was during the summer. I guess I just gotta learn to readjust all over again.

So I have a few weeks home before I gotta go back to school. Remember back in the day when I was trying to sell my car? Well... that didn't happen. So instead we started looking at dealerships online. Luckily I found one right away. It was a 2004 Honda, a hatchback like what I wanted, and looked super cute. It was also affordable for my mom and I. Unfortunately, it had over 150,000 miles and the dealership people weren't very friendly. But I did really like the car, so we started talking numbers. Well it turned out that the dealership wouldn't be willing to help us with financing, so as we sat waiting on the guy to bring us more information, I looked up another dealership.

This turned out to be a great idea. Online I found a 2003 Ford that was $200 cheaper and had almost 20,000 less miles. So we headed over to that dealer and test drove it . It was horrible. It was kinda small, it shook, and and the brakes were scary slow to stop the car. I hated it. I was scared to drive it when we took it out. So the guy took us around the lot to look at cars. My mom and I decided on the same one. It's a 2004 Dodge Durango. It's huge, it's pretty, and it only has 98,000 miles on it. The biggest problems with it were the price (almost $10,000) and gas mileage (14/19 -_-). However, after sitting down and talking numbers with this dealership, we not only got the price down, but the payments ended up being exactly $1 less than what mom wrote down that we could afford. Everything is turning out perfect, and if everything goes right, we'll be picking up the car tomorrow (Wednesday). So please send positive thoughts, vibes, and prayers.

Tomorrow I'll be saying goodbye to my love for over a month, I'll be starting a new journey with a new car, and I'll be taking time to start organizing and packing for college. Even though I don't want to do it, it's the best thing to do. Wish me luck as I start on my pile of stuff!

Peace out nerds;)
Kaylee

26 Days Later...

I don't know why it takes me so long to get back to this freaking blog. I completely blame Jon. I haven't been able to secure a job yet, but Jon has a second interview on Friday morning. Positive thoughts and vibes please! We could really use the money.

My mom and I have decided to sell my car and use the money to put down on a newer car. So if any of y'all are interested in a '96 Lexus with a few problems, please let me know!-_- I know the car I want but I'm nervous that my car won't get a bid or that no one will be interested. I mean it's a great car, it drives beautifully, and the A/C is God's gift to Texas, but there are just things wrong with it that I'm not able to fix, things I can't afford to fix.

We've also been looking at places for Jon. We're going to actually see with our eyes some places tomorrow. He found a 1 Bed/1 Bath for cheap and a studio that isn't too bad. We were really hoping to get in on his friends' duplex since they just moved into a bigger house, but his roommates have decided to go somewhere else, so he's left looking for somewhere cheap but comfortable.

Our eating habits haven't been too bad since I moved in, but not moving around much, or working, or even simply leaving the house has left the both of us gaining weight from laziness. This week we decided to start working out, but haven't started yet. But I feel positive we'll start soon. Neither of us are feeling good about ourselves, and I think that will help with motivation.

Okay, well that's all my news. Have a good night!

Sorry

I know it's been quite a while since I last posted anything. Life has sent me through quite a lot of twists and turns recently. I somehow made it through my freshman year of college unscathed except by my own human stupidity. I won't reveal my grades, except for two: English and US History, in which both I got an A. So I'm very proud of those grades, though everything else makes them basically obsolete. I'm mad at myself, but I already went over that in another post.

So life is really hard right now. Just over a week ago I officially moved in with Jon for the summer. While it's been great being here, the trip here, the arguments, and the lack of jobs/money, hasn't been wonderful.

I was only an hour in on my trip down here when I hit something in the road and blew out two of my tires. The money I had earned working with my dad ended up going to pay for two new tires and a lugnut key for my tires since my original one was broken. Which everyone found surprising... but not me, because the car is almost 20 years old and falling apart. Nothing can be right on it.

The arguments have been plenty, however they're not nearly as bad as they could be. For the first week, we fought every day, but they've died down immensely. I'm happy here, with him and the kitty. Although there is a possibility of us having to move because his apartment people suck. Apparently, if you don't resign your lease immediately after they give notice (even if your lease isn't up until August), they open your room up for other people to move into at the beginning of the new lease cycle. It's very annoying. I just got everything moved in, and now we may have to pack everything back up again.

Jobs wise, I've applied to about 10 and am now just waiting and hoping for something to happen. His end of the search has been slower, but he did go out and apply at the movie theater. Please send good vibes and positive thoughts our way. I know I'd really appreciate it.

Well that's iIcan say for now. it's super late and I unfortunately do need sleep to process.

Sleep tight and stay fresh,
Kaylee

Back in Green

So last week was Spring Break. I spent half of it with my mom and half with Jon. It went by incredibly too fast, but it was still nice to get an entire week off from school and away from all the stress it brings. In just a week and a half, I will be at Jon's again for almost a week during Easter Break. And then the next weekend I'll be home again for my mom's birthday. Just a month after that, we will be completing finals and then school will be over and I'll be in the Austin area for the summer.

I could stay on campus for Easter Break, but it would end up costing more than just going to Jon's. Besides, if I don't see him then, I won't see him at all again until I move in for the summer. And that's not flying with me.

The week before Spring Break, we had midterms. I made 90 or above on every single one.. except for Algebra. I'm honestly worried about failing it, but it just doesn't click. I'd ask for a tutor, but there are none left this late in the school year and I can't compute what the teacher says, so seeing her isn't an option. I'm just praying for this semester to end on a good note. My goal was to get my GPA up, but I'm very worried Algebra is going to bring it way down.

On a brighter note, sorority stuff is going well. I'm feeling good about it and all the girls are so lovely. I definitely feel it was a good choice for me. Sometimes it feels like it's taking up too much time, but in the end, it'll be worth it.

Okay, well, that's all for now. Send positive vibes my way y'all.

Stay super cool and super fresh,
Kaylee