Welcome Back!

Oh hey! Where have you been?
What? No! I've totally been posting for the past month.
YOU'RE the one who hasn't been here....

Okay, I guess you caught me. I've been a bad blog owner. But I'm back! I hope..

I've found myself staring at a blank new post screen many times over the past almost two months, but somehow or another my mind is whisked off in another direction. I'm sorry it's so been so long. School has really been a big weight on me, not to mention work. I end my days feeling bogged down and too tired to do anything. It really shouldn't impede my work. This is my job, and it's an important part of me. If I lose sight of it, I lose something of myself.

So let's do a bit of updating.
-School has been okay. It sucks cause it's school, but I still really enjoy my teachers. I have an exam and a paper due on Tuesday and I'm a bit worried about them. I just hope I can get it all done.
-Work has been awful. I'm so done with this job and it's only been two and a half months. Looking for other jobs already. I just really need something that is mentally challenging and satisfying. Yesterday, I spent a good hour looking up writing jobs. No luck. If you have anything, PLEASE send it my way!
-Our four year anniversary was this week. We spent the weekend before together, celebrating ang enjoying what little time we had before the real world decided to rear its ugly head again.

Alright, on to less boring things.

I have literally been craving activity lately. Exercise, writing, reading, photography, making videos. But I feel like I have no time to do the things I want to do, what I feel like I need to do in order to be happy and content and at least freaking satisfied.

Life is hard, y'all. And my life isn't even that hard, not compared to the reality of peoples lives out there. But I'm not diminishing what I see as hard, or what someone else sees. Everyone has their own version of what a hard life looks like.

ANYWAY, off that tangent.

The need to be doing something productive is hitting hard with me. But I can't start videos until I learn how to edit. And really I need a lot more time for that kind of thing. So it might have to wait until summer. I feel like I'm always saying that. But it is really something I want to do, so I think it will happen, one way or another.

The exercise thing I could totally be accomplishing on my own, but laziness and tiredness get in the way. When I do have the energy to do something good for myself, I don't because I want to relax instead of moving. Definitely a project for improving my self worth.

Writing and reading... That one I do all the time! I'm reading a book called My Paris Dream by Kate Betts, and I absolutely LOVE it. I raved about it on my Instagram. I'll probably do a post on it. I need to make posts for several books. Honestly it'd be easier just to video... I wonder if I'm able to just post my videos on here? That would be a good transition.. Then I don't have to be so wrapped up in what I want my channel to look like, cause I already have a feel and view of what my blog is. I can't believe I've never thought of that before... Hmm.
Oh yeah writing! I'm doing lots of that. I started a book recently, and I'm attempting to force myself to only write that. It's super hard. During the Halloween month, I kept getting distracted by ideas for witches. As soon as October was over, so was the witch thing. However, I recently stumbled across an old story of mine and holy crap! It wasn't bad. I was actually super impressed with my writing. It was the kind of sophisticated writing I wish I had now. Maybe my confidence is faltering. So I am working on both of those, the new story and the old one I discovered the other week.

Okay and the photography craving. I am actually going to take a photography class next semester! I'm super excited for it. Definitely going to learn more than I have ever known. Not much to say about it haha, just excited. Also! There's probably going to be a photo dump post soon. I really love the things I've captured, and I want to share them with my friends:)

Well, I'm not sure there's anything else to talk about. Not interested in discussing the Presidential Election. I'm mourning and hoping these next four years just fly by.

That's all for now.
Keep being fresh and tune in next week!
Kaylee



PS- I don't know if you have noticed, but besides spelling, I don't edit my posts. I don't have the patience. Stories? I'll edit those all day long. But there's something about a blog post and essays, I hate editing them. Okay bye!

In Which Kaylee Describes Her Awesome Week

Soooo, some pretty cool stuff happened to me the past two weeks. First is that I purchased a plane ticket for South Padre. I haven't been on a plane since I was in the forth grade, so this is going to be quite an experience for me. Luckily the flight is only about an hour and a half. I'm very excited to see my cousin soon. Though I only get a few days with her, it's going to be awesome. And hopefully, by next summer, I can make my way out there again. Then we can go out to bars, and have a real Padre experience.

Second, I got my writing mojo back. I'm actually writing again -sparsely- and it feels so good. I get excited to write these posts, and I write them early because I want to get it all out. This feeling, and energy for writing is so good. I hope it decides to stay for a while.

Third, I read two books in about a week and a half! I'd been nibbling my way through Remembrance (by Meg Cabot, http://www.megcabot.com/) and was under halfway through, when all of a sudden on Monday I started chomping at it. By Tuesday I was over halfway done, and then at 5 AM, early on Wednesday morning, I finished the book, tears forming in my eyes. By lunch that day, I was nearly halfway through another book. I didn't get much time for reading on Thursday or Friday, but between the hours of 12 AM and 3 AM on Saturday morning, I finished Howl's Moving Castle (by Diana Wynne Jones, it's also a Studio Ghibli anime). It was my second time reading this book, and god did I pick up on things a lot more clearly. I'd love to do a thorough analysis and critic of the book. I might start it later this week and post it on the blog.

Fourth, the most important.... Two of my famous people actually noticed me. I tweeted out after I finished Remembrance about how great it was, and Meg Cabot, the real one, actually liked my tweet. Not only that, but she also followed me! (I'm sure it's publicists or whatever, but let me DREAM.)

And then early this morning (it's currently 3:30 AM), I took a picture of a poster my friends found and tweeted out to Toby Turner (better known as Tobuscus on YouTube, https://www.youtube.com/user/Tobuscus) and he liked it! I know it was actually him and not a publicist because he's not famous enough yet to need someone to monitor his social media. And that makes it even cooler!

While those things may seem small, they make me incredibly happy. It was such an experience to realize that people you consider to be rock stars and celebrities actually took the time to notice you for ten seconds. I felt so good, and that's what matters.

Y'all have a great day.
Kaylee

This Week We Discuss Books.

I've tried over a hundred times to write a blog post, but nothing would come to me. It was like the energy to create just didn't exist for a while. But, while my writing has been on the fritz, my reading and photographing muses have been singing. At Christmastime, I started rereading one of my favorite book series of all time: The Gemma Doyle Trilogy, by the all-powerful Libba Bray.

http://libbabray.com/

This would be the first time I've read these books again, since I was in seventh grade. That's nearly seven years! It took me from Christmas until this past weekend to finish the first one, which is only 400 pages long! I imagine it took so long for several reasons: I got bored (hard for me to admit), I had school and sorority, and I was busy being with my boyfriend. Luckily, I did finish the damned thing and moved onto the sequel (600 pages), Saturday. I finished that this morning and then proceeded to grab the last book off my shelf (800 pages).

It's also very interesting that I'm reading this (my favorite book series) at the beginning of the semester, because last fall, I reread my second favorite book series, by a talented Mrs. Rosemary Clement-Moore (https://readrosemary.wordpress.com/). Who I actually have met! Almost all of the books that I own by her (which is nearly all the YA books she's published) are signed (in person!) copies.

Both of these women writers, Bray and Clement-Moore, are my role models. They're beautiful, strong, courageous, and they write in such a fashion and in such lines that I wish to be the main character. Not to give spoilers, but both series revolve around a young girl who has just discovered powers inside herself that she's not sure how to control. In Bray's trilogy, Gemma is a young girl (just turned 16) who was raised in Victorian era British-ruled India, but pretty soon in the book is moved to England for school. Clement-Moore's books detail a slightly older girl named Maggie who attends a present day high school. Both girls must battle demons, while facing rocky friendships, growing up, and finding out who they truly are (and romancing hot guys).

I love these books with all my heart. If posting this gets anyone out there interested in either the authors or the books, great! I would feel more than accomplished at getting these authors' names out there and these wonderful books noticed. Read them! Follow them! Live the lives of two young girls just trying to make their way through this cruel and craggy world. I love books, y'all!

That's it, rant over.
Kaylee

PS- I got a job!

Lazy Kitty Day

Most of today I have spent in bed, curled up in a ball, while Jon runs errands and takes care of groceries. The entire day has been in a stay in bed and cuddle the cat day. Though she isn't as sweet as she appears, she's spent the day curled up at my side as we slept and waited for dad to come back. 

Well things are going well job wise for Jon (fingers crossed). It looks like he'll be getting a job that will also provide us with healthy, cheap food. I've been applying for babysitting jobs everyday and am still applying for retail jobs. However, I've been applying for jobs in Nac for when school starts up again. Gotta be prepared, ya'know? 

We're also still looking for a place for Jon. He'll be kicked out of his apartment at the end of this month, which means we need to get him into a place ASAP. Which is unfortunate because he can't afford very much, meaning it's hard to find a 1 Bed/1 Bath for him. Which of course means he'll end up in an apartment with roommates, exactly what he's trying to get away from. 

I've been in an extreme writing mood recently but can't think of anything to write about. My dreams have provided interesting ideas, but they seem to slip away too fast. Reading has also been calling to me, but my one book I have with me isn't keeping my attention too well. 

Well that's all I have for now. Aren't you proud of me for posting on schedule?