Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Being Adult-ish

I think being an adult is probably one of the hardest things to do. Being a kid and being a teenager is pretty easy, or it can be sometimes. But since I've become an "adult," so many things have become so much harder. Even my anxiety has gotten worse. I cry at least once a day now, because of the pressures of acting like an adult, being an adult, taking care of responsibilities like an adult.

So we all remember that I just got a new job? Well, I was told I would be working four days a week, which would've been perfect, income-wise. So far I've worked three weeks, two of those I worked three days, and this week I've only worked two. I can't pay my phone bill till the 1st of July, and I'm not sure what's going to happen with my car payment. Also I have defensive driving stuff to take care of, which is not only more money, but more time that I simply don't have.

Now, I'm not saying I don't like being an adult, because I do. Honestly. The problem is transitioning. My mom and I never had that much money in the first place, but we always made it through our hardest situations. But I don't have her help out here, for several reasons. 1. Shecan't afford it. 2. I don't want to ask to her. 3. She already paid for everything for the first 18 years of my life, it's my turn to start paying. I'm 20 after all, and if I can't pay my own tickets, my car payments, or my phone bill, where will I be when I'm 25, or 30?

Being an adult is really fucking hard. Making payments, buying groceries and gas, making sure the pets are taken care of, making sure you're not spending money on stupid things. That's being an adult. Realizing you have responsibilities and that if you don't take care of them, no one will. It's welcoming the fact that you're on your own, not as a bad thing, but as a stepping stone to becoming a responsible human being.

I can barely pay my bills, but I am paying them. And someday I won't be struggling. Someday the budget on paper will work out as good in real life. But for now, I'll buckle up, find a second job, and plow through life as carefully as possible.

You guys stay fresh.
Kaylee

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Corpus Cristi

Hey guys! So first off, I officially started work last Friday. And I almost died my first day. I guess it was a combination of sleep deprivation, hunger, and heat, but I got real dizzy, my ears were ringing to the point I couldn't hear myself talking, my vision went black, and my co-workers told me my lips had started to turn blue. My only guess for what happened was that I wasn't getting enough oxygen to my brain and I had started suffocating. So that was scary as hell. And it was only my first day! But every day after has been fine. I got a little dizzy my second day but I kept drinking water and reminding myself to breathe. For my job, I'm in the stock room, where I hang apparel. Literally, just pull clothing out of the box, tag if it needs to be tagged, put on hanger, and put on rack. Sometimes I run the clothes out there, sometimes I don't. The worst part is that I have to wake up at 7 AM. But next Monday and Tuesday they have me coming in at 6:15. Not looking forward to that at all. Except that I get off before 11. That's nice. 

Anyway, the real reason we're all here today is so I can talk about Corpus Cristi. My mom, brother, sister-in-law, and their daughter took a trip Monday through today. Corpus is only about a two and a half hour drive from here (when I'm driving anyway), so I decided to go down there on Tuesday and leave on Wednesday. It was a lot of fun. I haven't spent a lot of time with that brother and sister-in-law recently because they live farther away than my other brother and his family, who I try to see almost every time I'm home. 

We went to the beach both days I was there, and while it's not as pretty as Galveston or South Padre, I still got some great shots. My good camera was sitting in my back seat the whole trip, so all my pictures are from my iPhone. Not that I mind. iPhones take great pictures. 

For dinner on Tuesday we went to a place called Oso, which is a fishing pier, bait shop, and restaurant. My brother told me the pier had been there for 50 years, when the shop originally opened. My mom talked to the owner, a young woman who looked like she was 20 to maybe 25. She had bought the shop several years ago and after acquiring a partner in 2014, decided to open the restaurant part of it. Their food was amazing. I just got a simple grilled chicken sandwich, but the bun was sweet and soft, the chicken was delicious, and they put this kinda spicy sauce on it that was perfect. It was a cute little place, located right before the bridge that goes toward the A&M campus. 

On Wednesday we drove out to Mustang Island and hung out at the National Park. It's only $5 a person, and they have bathrooms and showers, camping, fishing, and several sites for RVs. The water was a lot choppier over there, cause it was the straight up ocean instead of just the bay. I loved the waves over there. 

Alright! Time for pictures!




All three of the last pictures are from Oso. The top one is my mom, sister-in-law, and niece outside of our hotel, enjoying the beach. I don't know what happened with the watermark. It worked perfect for the first picture and then decided to derp out for the others. Don't know why. Couldn't fix it. Oh well. 

Okay guys, that's it. Have a fresh weekend!
Kaylee

(Also something that was really humbling to see was a great big memorial for the Orlando victims. It was on Tuesday night, right on the waterfront by a park. Hundreds of people were gathered to pay tribute. My thoughts are with all the victims' families during this time.)


Tuesday, June 07, 2016

As I Watch the Clock Tick

Lame title, right? It's because that's exactly what I've been doing for almost three weeks. Sitting in Jon's apartment, waiting to hear back for jobs. Well I finally received my call for orientation today. I'll be beginning work at Ross tomorrow. Unfortunately, it's looking like that's not going to be enough income for me and my bills, so I'm also looking and applying for a second part-time job to cover my nights.

I'm very excited to start work, and finally get some retail experience under my belt. Plus I really miss doing something with my days. While it's nice to sleep the day away and watch Netflix all night, I really need something to keep me occupied. Plus if I'm making money, Jon and I can get started on transitioning our diets and menus into healthier food.

He already works noon to 9, so that's another reason I want a second job. So I have something to do while he's working. Being on the go constantly will hopefully be able to help with planning healthy food options, and preparing healthy dinners beforehand. I kinda want to be that healthy mom, even though I don't have a kid (except for the dog and cat). But Jon doesn't take care of himself food wise, so I need to.

I really want to be that person that plans out meals and writes them on the chalkboard for the week. And I feel like I could do that, but I need the money and the time, and the freaking patience. I want to be one of those women who actually does the projects she pins on Pinterest, and actually makes the recipes. I've done two recipes and a few projects, but I want my whole place to be an accumulation of my whole Pinterest career. If you want to check out my Pinterest and follow me there, here's the link: https://www.pinterest.com/kaylie153/.


Have a fresh night,
Kaylee