I hate this day. Everything decided to go wrong at once. My classes were fine, those were a breeze, even though I had been up until 5 AM putting together a project a piece for them. Again, classes were not the problem.

Found out Jon won't be coming to my sorority formal, and I'll only be able to see him for one day during April. Not that he bothered to explain why.

And that was the first thing that happened to me when I woke up.

I left my first class to find my car getting a parking ticket. Appealing that bullshit.

I was then late to my second class, but it was fine because she hadn't started anything yet. The project in that class went perfectly.

And then, for god knows what reason, hell decided it was going to make me its bitch. Besides being disappointed because of two things my boyfriend did, I also found out that some information was given to me wrong regarding a sorority event but I had already told the person covering for me that he didn't need to. I've been searching for someone to take my shift since 3 this afternoon.

That's not even the worst of it.

I just need someone to cover me for THREE HOURS but none of those fuckers will do it. So I have to miss out on something really important to me because my fucking co-workers are all assholes. I'm not asking for that much. It's three freaking hours and you get to go back to your life before anything exciting starts.

This has been one of the worst days I've had. I'm trying not to cry in the middle of the library while I type. This is the first time I've wanted to hurt myself in months. I'm just feeling so angry and sad and my anxiety is on a fucking roller coaster. I'm so tired of this fucking place. I can't wait until I'm home.

I'm just so done.



There's no editing and I'm not sharing it. If you happen to check my blog (since I didn't update on Monday), you'll see it. Otherwise, that's it.

Kaylee.

In Which Kaylee Describes Her Awesome Week

Soooo, some pretty cool stuff happened to me the past two weeks. First is that I purchased a plane ticket for South Padre. I haven't been on a plane since I was in the forth grade, so this is going to be quite an experience for me. Luckily the flight is only about an hour and a half. I'm very excited to see my cousin soon. Though I only get a few days with her, it's going to be awesome. And hopefully, by next summer, I can make my way out there again. Then we can go out to bars, and have a real Padre experience.

Second, I got my writing mojo back. I'm actually writing again -sparsely- and it feels so good. I get excited to write these posts, and I write them early because I want to get it all out. This feeling, and energy for writing is so good. I hope it decides to stay for a while.

Third, I read two books in about a week and a half! I'd been nibbling my way through Remembrance (by Meg Cabot, http://www.megcabot.com/) and was under halfway through, when all of a sudden on Monday I started chomping at it. By Tuesday I was over halfway done, and then at 5 AM, early on Wednesday morning, I finished the book, tears forming in my eyes. By lunch that day, I was nearly halfway through another book. I didn't get much time for reading on Thursday or Friday, but between the hours of 12 AM and 3 AM on Saturday morning, I finished Howl's Moving Castle (by Diana Wynne Jones, it's also a Studio Ghibli anime). It was my second time reading this book, and god did I pick up on things a lot more clearly. I'd love to do a thorough analysis and critic of the book. I might start it later this week and post it on the blog.

Fourth, the most important.... Two of my famous people actually noticed me. I tweeted out after I finished Remembrance about how great it was, and Meg Cabot, the real one, actually liked my tweet. Not only that, but she also followed me! (I'm sure it's publicists or whatever, but let me DREAM.)

And then early this morning (it's currently 3:30 AM), I took a picture of a poster my friends found and tweeted out to Toby Turner (better known as Tobuscus on YouTube, https://www.youtube.com/user/Tobuscus) and he liked it! I know it was actually him and not a publicist because he's not famous enough yet to need someone to monitor his social media. And that makes it even cooler!

While those things may seem small, they make me incredibly happy. It was such an experience to realize that people you consider to be rock stars and celebrities actually took the time to notice you for ten seconds. I felt so good, and that's what matters.

Y'all have a great day.
Kaylee