02/26/2017

                                     

         

Obviously it's been a long time since my last post. Which really sucks cause I know I said I was trying to post a whole bunch more. And honestly, it's the same excuse it always is. Work and school and not feeling like it. I know how lame that is and how much I suck at things. However, I really, honestly haven't had the time. Every time a post came to mind, I was in the middle of responsibilities.

But now let's talk about what's happened in all the time that has passed.

Math Class
Mom and I have been in the class for about a month now. We had our first test at the beginning of this month, and I'm pretty happy with how I did, but I do wish my grade had been a bit higher. The homework is straight forward and mostly a clone of what she teaches us in class. But, I have noticed through my multiple math classes, that it's very common to see problems you've never encountered in class. And that can be super annoying, and it causes a whole bunch of anxiety.

Blog Changes
Right away you'll notice change. The background has been done up, and there's no title on posts from now on. Also the actual blog title has been changed. Instead, I'm going to be making these graphic things. I love them, plus they are super cute. There's more I'd like to do to jazz the blog up, but I don't think I'll be able to do it with Blogger. Which means, sometime in the future, we could end up moving blog sites. Probably to WordPress or maybe Wix. One of my favorite YouTubers has a blog, and that's where a lot of my inspiration for change is coming from (https://marziaslife.com/).

For so long I've been trying to figure out what to do with this blog. Do I make it a photography blog, a book blog, a mix of everything? Most of the time it just ends up being update posts because it's been so long since I posted. Marzia's blog is a good example of the kind of posts I would like to share on this blog. Just snippets of life, and what I've done that week. Definitely check her blog out! It's super cute and the pugs are the best.

Life
My birthday was last month! I turned 21 y'all! For my birthday weekend, my boyfriend and I stayed in a hotel in San Marcos for the PAX South convention. I'll post something about it at a later time because I have a lot to say and pictures to share.

I also saw him last weekend for a late Valentine's celebration. We had dinner at the same place we ate at last year. Just as good as before.

I thought I had more life update to share but most of my news was about the blog changes.
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Alright that's it!
Kaylee

New Year's Resolutions

Everyone does New Year Resolutions. I feel like it's just built into our psyche to choose something to strive for in the coming months of our new year. For myself, I have chosen a few things I'd like to accomplish/improve on.

1. Be happy.
2. Finish writing ONE book.
3. Improve photography skills.
4. Learn how to edit a video.
5. Seek professional help for my mental problems.
6. Publish one blog post a week.

Okay when I first started writing, there were only going to be three, but then I thought of more things I needed to do and work on for myself.

Now let's discuss why I've chosen each "resolution."

1. I need to be happy. I've spent so long being worried, stressed, and tormenting myself with my pessimistic thoughts. However I can only accomplish happiness, if I choose happiness. I honestly believe I am the only thing holding me back. Now, I do have quite a load of stuff that weighs on me and keeps me terrified of tomorrow. But, I can choose to look at these struggles as a challenge that propels me toward a brighter future. Paying bills on time makes me financially responsible. Going to school improves my mind. Being worried about money teaches me how to budget. All these struggles and problems in life are just lessons. I spend so much time being so scared of what could happen if I screw up, I've constantly got my eyes on the ground looking for the next hole I'm falling into. My goal is to be happy, to look forward to tomorrow, and to remember that though there are pretty crappy things I'm going through, I can make it.

2. Okay, to be quite honest, this is a little ambitious for me. I have only finished one book ever. It was approximately 30 pages long on the computer, and it was AWFUL. But I am going to try so hard to make this resolution actually come true. I have three stories I am even kind of working on, so one of those is what I'm hoping to finish. Oh! Speaking of, you can totally read the first couple parts of one of those stories on my Wattpad: Summer by the Sea. Please don't judge it by the summary. I'm so bad at those, but I tried! Anyway, that story, and two other ones I have are the stories I'm currently working at, and I really hope one of them will be finished by December 31st.

3. So, due to some financial problems, I likely will not be taking my photography class this semester. I'd rather not go into it, so I'll just say how I'm going to work on it myself. The biggest goal for photography is to intern this summer. There are two really great photographers based out of Austin that I would like to work with. Unfortunately, my only portfolio is pictures I've taken and edited on my phone, I have no recommendations. But I'm hoping they'll be impressed enough with what I can do on my own one of them will hire me to the cause. I say "hire," but I don't care if they pay me. I'll be transferring for the summer with my current job, so I won't need money from them, just the experience and knowledge they can provide. I'd also like to get a nice editing software for photos so I can work on my editing skills, and add that to my resume.

4. This is pretty personal. I'd love to be able to start up my YouTube channel this year, but I need to learn how to edit videos. First and foremost. I won't let myself do YouTube unless I have some basic understanding of how to make a video interesting.

5. You guys know my problems. Those are what I'm seeking help for.

6. This one is simple. I'm awful at blogging. But writing is a passion. And the best way to improve my writing, is to - wow - WRITE. The blog means a lot to me, it's helped me vent a lot, about a bunch of stuff. So I need to repay it by writing on the freaking thing.

Alright, well those are my New Year's Resolutions. I realize that this is a few days late, however, in my defense, I started it on the 1st. But then I got bored and gave up.

That's going to be it for now. I'd love to hear what resolutions you guys have for this year! Comments is always open and hungry.

Stay fresh till next week. Buh-bye!
Kaylee

Welcome Back!

Oh hey! Where have you been?
What? No! I've totally been posting for the past month.
YOU'RE the one who hasn't been here....

Okay, I guess you caught me. I've been a bad blog owner. But I'm back! I hope..

I've found myself staring at a blank new post screen many times over the past almost two months, but somehow or another my mind is whisked off in another direction. I'm sorry it's so been so long. School has really been a big weight on me, not to mention work. I end my days feeling bogged down and too tired to do anything. It really shouldn't impede my work. This is my job, and it's an important part of me. If I lose sight of it, I lose something of myself.

So let's do a bit of updating.
-School has been okay. It sucks cause it's school, but I still really enjoy my teachers. I have an exam and a paper due on Tuesday and I'm a bit worried about them. I just hope I can get it all done.
-Work has been awful. I'm so done with this job and it's only been two and a half months. Looking for other jobs already. I just really need something that is mentally challenging and satisfying. Yesterday, I spent a good hour looking up writing jobs. No luck. If you have anything, PLEASE send it my way!
-Our four year anniversary was this week. We spent the weekend before together, celebrating ang enjoying what little time we had before the real world decided to rear its ugly head again.

Alright, on to less boring things.

I have literally been craving activity lately. Exercise, writing, reading, photography, making videos. But I feel like I have no time to do the things I want to do, what I feel like I need to do in order to be happy and content and at least freaking satisfied.

Life is hard, y'all. And my life isn't even that hard, not compared to the reality of peoples lives out there. But I'm not diminishing what I see as hard, or what someone else sees. Everyone has their own version of what a hard life looks like.

ANYWAY, off that tangent.

The need to be doing something productive is hitting hard with me. But I can't start videos until I learn how to edit. And really I need a lot more time for that kind of thing. So it might have to wait until summer. I feel like I'm always saying that. But it is really something I want to do, so I think it will happen, one way or another.

The exercise thing I could totally be accomplishing on my own, but laziness and tiredness get in the way. When I do have the energy to do something good for myself, I don't because I want to relax instead of moving. Definitely a project for improving my self worth.

Writing and reading... That one I do all the time! I'm reading a book called My Paris Dream by Kate Betts, and I absolutely LOVE it. I raved about it on my Instagram. I'll probably do a post on it. I need to make posts for several books. Honestly it'd be easier just to video... I wonder if I'm able to just post my videos on here? That would be a good transition.. Then I don't have to be so wrapped up in what I want my channel to look like, cause I already have a feel and view of what my blog is. I can't believe I've never thought of that before... Hmm.
Oh yeah writing! I'm doing lots of that. I started a book recently, and I'm attempting to force myself to only write that. It's super hard. During the Halloween month, I kept getting distracted by ideas for witches. As soon as October was over, so was the witch thing. However, I recently stumbled across an old story of mine and holy crap! It wasn't bad. I was actually super impressed with my writing. It was the kind of sophisticated writing I wish I had now. Maybe my confidence is faltering. So I am working on both of those, the new story and the old one I discovered the other week.

Okay and the photography craving. I am actually going to take a photography class next semester! I'm super excited for it. Definitely going to learn more than I have ever known. Not much to say about it haha, just excited. Also! There's probably going to be a photo dump post soon. I really love the things I've captured, and I want to share them with my friends:)

Well, I'm not sure there's anything else to talk about. Not interested in discussing the Presidential Election. I'm mourning and hoping these next four years just fly by.

That's all for now.
Keep being fresh and tune in next week!
Kaylee



PS- I don't know if you have noticed, but besides spelling, I don't edit my posts. I don't have the patience. Stories? I'll edit those all day long. But there's something about a blog post and essays, I hate editing them. Okay bye!

As I Watch the Clock Tick

Lame title, right? It's because that's exactly what I've been doing for almost three weeks. Sitting in Jon's apartment, waiting to hear back for jobs. Well I finally received my call for orientation today. I'll be beginning work at Ross tomorrow. Unfortunately, it's looking like that's not going to be enough income for me and my bills, so I'm also looking and applying for a second part-time job to cover my nights.

I'm very excited to start work, and finally get some retail experience under my belt. Plus I really miss doing something with my days. While it's nice to sleep the day away and watch Netflix all night, I really need something to keep me occupied. Plus if I'm making money, Jon and I can get started on transitioning our diets and menus into healthier food.

He already works noon to 9, so that's another reason I want a second job. So I have something to do while he's working. Being on the go constantly will hopefully be able to help with planning healthy food options, and preparing healthy dinners beforehand. I kinda want to be that healthy mom, even though I don't have a kid (except for the dog and cat). But Jon doesn't take care of himself food wise, so I need to.

I really want to be that person that plans out meals and writes them on the chalkboard for the week. And I feel like I could do that, but I need the money and the time, and the freaking patience. I want to be one of those women who actually does the projects she pins on Pinterest, and actually makes the recipes. I've done two recipes and a few projects, but I want my whole place to be an accumulation of my whole Pinterest career. If you want to check out my Pinterest and follow me there, here's the link: https://www.pinterest.com/kaylie153/.


Have a fresh night,
Kaylee

Hi Friends

I was going to write a post about how things have been recently, but too much has happened for me to put in a simple post right now. I literally don't have the patience. So instead, I thought I would do something fun.

A lot of you are my family and friends, but I know that I do also get audience from Google+ and Twitter, possibly from people who don't know me that well. Even my friends and family may not know me that well. So I'm going to talk about myself, give some facts, maybe some favorites, and a little about my life. Things that you don't already know obviously.

• My name is Kaylynn, but on the blog I go by Kaylee. On my other social media, it's Kaylie. "Kaylee" is my dad's spelling of the name, and when I first created the blog, I wanted to distance my every day life from it. But now I believe it is a part of me. So I embrace Kaylee and Kaylie. 
• If you want to find me on social media, my username for almost everything is kaylie153. My Tumblr is keeperkeys. 
• I am 20 years old, and impatiently awaiting my 21st.
• I have four pets at home: Little Dog, the long haired chihuahua; Zou-Zou (or Kitty), the cat; Gizmo, the shih tzu; and Cassidy, the German Shepherd mix.
• I live in Texas, born and raised.
• I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost 3 and a half years.
• There are over ten cities on my list of places I want to live for at least six months. (Idea for a blog post?)
• My favorite color is purple.
• My favorite number is 9 because it was my favorite age. 
• My friends mean everything to me.
• Here's something I really don't want my mom to see: I'm Agnostic.
• I love all music except rap. Well most rap anyway.
• I'm pretty good with trivia. Jon and I are beasts at Heads Up.
• I want a YouTube channel more and more every day.
• I want to publish a book.
• I want to graduate college before I'm 27. (By the way I changed it again. There will be a post about it soon!)
• Sometimes my posts are late because I get too depressed to write anything.
• My favorite video games are Dynasty Warriors 4 and Max Payne (the first one) because they were games my brothers introduced me to.
• I look up to my brothers even when they're idiots.
• My mom is my best friend.
• Not counting my best friends and Jon.
• There's a lot I want to do in life and I'm so afraid I won't accomplish anything.

Well there's some things. It looks really long but there could've been more. I didn't know how detailed or what things were appropriate. Plus I don't know who all will read this, so I couldn't put some of the things on here that I feel are funny or important about me. While this might be boring, I hope it can show you a bit more about me, my person, and hopefully open up a dialogue between us if you found something of interest. I tried not to repeat myself about some things, so I didn't bother listing that I love books, movies, and photography. 

Expect the post about major change/SCAD soon!

Stay fresh y'all!

Kaylee

In Which Kaylee Describes Her Awesome Week

Soooo, some pretty cool stuff happened to me the past two weeks. First is that I purchased a plane ticket for South Padre. I haven't been on a plane since I was in the forth grade, so this is going to be quite an experience for me. Luckily the flight is only about an hour and a half. I'm very excited to see my cousin soon. Though I only get a few days with her, it's going to be awesome. And hopefully, by next summer, I can make my way out there again. Then we can go out to bars, and have a real Padre experience.

Second, I got my writing mojo back. I'm actually writing again -sparsely- and it feels so good. I get excited to write these posts, and I write them early because I want to get it all out. This feeling, and energy for writing is so good. I hope it decides to stay for a while.

Third, I read two books in about a week and a half! I'd been nibbling my way through Remembrance (by Meg Cabot, http://www.megcabot.com/) and was under halfway through, when all of a sudden on Monday I started chomping at it. By Tuesday I was over halfway done, and then at 5 AM, early on Wednesday morning, I finished the book, tears forming in my eyes. By lunch that day, I was nearly halfway through another book. I didn't get much time for reading on Thursday or Friday, but between the hours of 12 AM and 3 AM on Saturday morning, I finished Howl's Moving Castle (by Diana Wynne Jones, it's also a Studio Ghibli anime). It was my second time reading this book, and god did I pick up on things a lot more clearly. I'd love to do a thorough analysis and critic of the book. I might start it later this week and post it on the blog.

Fourth, the most important.... Two of my famous people actually noticed me. I tweeted out after I finished Remembrance about how great it was, and Meg Cabot, the real one, actually liked my tweet. Not only that, but she also followed me! (I'm sure it's publicists or whatever, but let me DREAM.)

And then early this morning (it's currently 3:30 AM), I took a picture of a poster my friends found and tweeted out to Toby Turner (better known as Tobuscus on YouTube, https://www.youtube.com/user/Tobuscus) and he liked it! I know it was actually him and not a publicist because he's not famous enough yet to need someone to monitor his social media. And that makes it even cooler!

While those things may seem small, they make me incredibly happy. It was such an experience to realize that people you consider to be rock stars and celebrities actually took the time to notice you for ten seconds. I felt so good, and that's what matters.

Y'all have a great day.
Kaylee

Update 36802 of 36802

The random title is because that's what my laptop is glaring at me right at this moment. 

Unfortunately, this small ass post is today's blog post. Due to stress and life and all those wonderful things, I'll be cutting back my posts to every other Monday. I have to do this, even if I don't want to. My life is beyond hectic right now and my combined anxiety and depression is at an all time high (in the bad way). 

I'm sorry to do this, for those of you who have stuck this crap out with me, but I really can't see another option. But, on the bright side, because I'm cutting back on posts, I'll probably be able to write bigger and better ones, it'll just be less often. 

So not the next Monday, but the one after that, I'll be posting another book appreciation post. If any of you are Meg Canot fans, be sure to tune back in, in two weeks. 

That's all for now. Have a fresh night and week!

Kaylee