Hi Friends

I was going to write a post about how things have been recently, but too much has happened for me to put in a simple post right now. I literally don't have the patience. So instead, I thought I would do something fun.

A lot of you are my family and friends, but I know that I do also get audience from Google+ and Twitter, possibly from people who don't know me that well. Even my friends and family may not know me that well. So I'm going to talk about myself, give some facts, maybe some favorites, and a little about my life. Things that you don't already know obviously.

• My name is Kaylynn, but on the blog I go by Kaylee. On my other social media, it's Kaylie. "Kaylee" is my dad's spelling of the name, and when I first created the blog, I wanted to distance my every day life from it. But now I believe it is a part of me. So I embrace Kaylee and Kaylie. 
• If you want to find me on social media, my username for almost everything is kaylie153. My Tumblr is keeperkeys. 
• I am 20 years old, and impatiently awaiting my 21st.
• I have four pets at home: Little Dog, the long haired chihuahua; Zou-Zou (or Kitty), the cat; Gizmo, the shih tzu; and Cassidy, the German Shepherd mix.
• I live in Texas, born and raised.
• I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost 3 and a half years.
• There are over ten cities on my list of places I want to live for at least six months. (Idea for a blog post?)
• My favorite color is purple.
• My favorite number is 9 because it was my favorite age. 
• My friends mean everything to me.
• Here's something I really don't want my mom to see: I'm Agnostic.
• I love all music except rap. Well most rap anyway.
• I'm pretty good with trivia. Jon and I are beasts at Heads Up.
• I want a YouTube channel more and more every day.
• I want to publish a book.
• I want to graduate college before I'm 27. (By the way I changed it again. There will be a post about it soon!)
• Sometimes my posts are late because I get too depressed to write anything.
• My favorite video games are Dynasty Warriors 4 and Max Payne (the first one) because they were games my brothers introduced me to.
• I look up to my brothers even when they're idiots.
• My mom is my best friend.
• Not counting my best friends and Jon.
• There's a lot I want to do in life and I'm so afraid I won't accomplish anything.

Well there's some things. It looks really long but there could've been more. I didn't know how detailed or what things were appropriate. Plus I don't know who all will read this, so I couldn't put some of the things on here that I feel are funny or important about me. While this might be boring, I hope it can show you a bit more about me, my person, and hopefully open up a dialogue between us if you found something of interest. I tried not to repeat myself about some things, so I didn't bother listing that I love books, movies, and photography. 

Expect the post about major change/SCAD soon!

Stay fresh y'all!

Kaylee

40th Post

Congratulations! We've made it to 40 posts. I can't believe it, can you? It's taken us almost a year and a half to get to here, and honestly, it took way too long. I should've been at 40 posts a long time ago. But we can't change the past, we can only look forward.

A lot of things are happening for me this semester: getting a Little, acting again, leaving the sorority, going to South Padre, and making a decision that will utterly change my future. And for once, this amount of change isn't scaring me. I'm actually excited for everything that's about to happen. I just want it to happen already. In another year's time I could be almost done with my basics and applying for SCAD (and other schools).

I'm so looking forward to this year. When school is over, I'll be with Jon again during the summer. The focus of the summer is going to be saving money, and looking for him a new apartment. There's just too many problems with the one he's in right now. Hopefully the summer will also give me the time I need to start up a YouTube account. I'm thinking blog for personal, YouTube for discussing certain topics, and then I also started a vine at Chey's urging. I gots myself a few followers:)

I'm feeling so good about things recently. I haven't been feeling depressed, though the anxiety is still pretty high. Also Jon and I are in a weird place. We barely talk at all, because our schedules just don't sync up. It's a little disheartening, but I need to focus on thinking about the positives. Ugh, I miss him lots.

Last night, I was looking at some pictures from my junior and senior year of high school. God, I don't know what happened. Besides laziness and college. I was never skinny, but at least I looked a lot better. I was a size 14, average for women nationally, and for my height. I cut sodas out about three weeks ago. Sometimes it's hard not to be tempted, but the cravings and headaches are gone. I wanted to make this big plan for my diet (which is my worst problem) to start with cutting soda, and then red meat, and eventually all sugar entirely. But I don't think I'll be able to accomplish that as soon as I'd like. Instead, I've made the decision of no more fast food. That's hard as a college student who works until midnight and isn't able to grab dinner from the cafeteria. I bought groceries a couple weeks ago and I've mostly let them go to waste except for the easy things and snack foods. Realizing how much fast food I eat in a week, I know that I can't do it anymore. It's horrible food and it's horrible for the body. Not that it doesn't taste good. But my health is so much more important than if my food tastes like cheesy goodness. Here's to making positive changes!

I really enjoyed writing this post. It's even going out early. I just feel so confident and so comfortable. I don't know the last time I felt this GOOD about life. I'm actually on the verge of tears right now. Life can be so good if you let it. You need to make changes that are good for you, make changes that will benefit you as a person, and make changes that make you happy. Leaving SFA is going to be really hard, but I'm doing it in the pursuit of my passions. I couldn't be more scared, but I'm also overwhelmingly HAPPY.

This feeling is incredible.

Happy 40th guys,
Kaylee

Some Stuff

Welp, life is kinda weird right now. I'm in this place where school is really on the rocks and I'm seriously questioning my path in life. I've been contemplating my major, my college, and all that fun stuff. My mom is trying to support me but you know how older people are. She just wants me to have a job when I graduate, she doesn't care if it doesn't follow along with my dreams.

Right now I'm an English major with teaching and a theatre minor. At this point in my life, I don't want to be a teacher. I haven't wanted to be a teacher since I was in tenth grade, but I did it because that's what my mom would want. Now I'm thinking about architecture and interior design. You know that show Fixer Upper? Yeah, that's what I want to do. Remodel old houses and buildings. Of course, I still want to write. Write everything and anything.

But I don't know what to do. There is only one school that does all three things I want. But it's in Georgia and it's an arts school. And the more I think about leaving the English department at SFA and leaving the sorority, the more sad it makes me. But it also makes a lot of fucking sense for my life right now. I'm not sure at all what I want to do or what decision to make. I wish my mom and Jon would speak up more about their opinions.

Anyway, my YouTube channel isn't happening for a while. Jon and I didn't film anything, but I'm also looking into a new laptop, which means I can do my own videos. Before I can even get a new laptop though I have to get an external hard drive to put all the important shit on this laptop so I don't lose my stuff.

Also, you probably noticed I didn't post last week. I was with Jon, and I was just trying to focus on my boyfriend and spending time with him. I'm not going to see him again until Valentine's Day so I just wanted to be with him. It was kinda a hard week, we fought a lot, but I think it was all good. We were able to talk about, and deal with things that are important to each other and the relationship. Hopefully we can make it through this next month, but I know it's going to be hard.

That's it for now guys. See ya next week!