Hi Friends

I was going to write a post about how things have been recently, but too much has happened for me to put in a simple post right now. I literally don't have the patience. So instead, I thought I would do something fun.

A lot of you are my family and friends, but I know that I do also get audience from Google+ and Twitter, possibly from people who don't know me that well. Even my friends and family may not know me that well. So I'm going to talk about myself, give some facts, maybe some favorites, and a little about my life. Things that you don't already know obviously.

• My name is Kaylynn, but on the blog I go by Kaylee. On my other social media, it's Kaylie. "Kaylee" is my dad's spelling of the name, and when I first created the blog, I wanted to distance my every day life from it. But now I believe it is a part of me. So I embrace Kaylee and Kaylie. 
• If you want to find me on social media, my username for almost everything is kaylie153. My Tumblr is keeperkeys. 
• I am 20 years old, and impatiently awaiting my 21st.
• I have four pets at home: Little Dog, the long haired chihuahua; Zou-Zou (or Kitty), the cat; Gizmo, the shih tzu; and Cassidy, the German Shepherd mix.
• I live in Texas, born and raised.
• I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost 3 and a half years.
• There are over ten cities on my list of places I want to live for at least six months. (Idea for a blog post?)
• My favorite color is purple.
• My favorite number is 9 because it was my favorite age. 
• My friends mean everything to me.
• Here's something I really don't want my mom to see: I'm Agnostic.
• I love all music except rap. Well most rap anyway.
• I'm pretty good with trivia. Jon and I are beasts at Heads Up.
• I want a YouTube channel more and more every day.
• I want to publish a book.
• I want to graduate college before I'm 27. (By the way I changed it again. There will be a post about it soon!)
• Sometimes my posts are late because I get too depressed to write anything.
• My favorite video games are Dynasty Warriors 4 and Max Payne (the first one) because they were games my brothers introduced me to.
• I look up to my brothers even when they're idiots.
• My mom is my best friend.
• Not counting my best friends and Jon.
• There's a lot I want to do in life and I'm so afraid I won't accomplish anything.

Well there's some things. It looks really long but there could've been more. I didn't know how detailed or what things were appropriate. Plus I don't know who all will read this, so I couldn't put some of the things on here that I feel are funny or important about me. While this might be boring, I hope it can show you a bit more about me, my person, and hopefully open up a dialogue between us if you found something of interest. I tried not to repeat myself about some things, so I didn't bother listing that I love books, movies, and photography. 

Expect the post about major change/SCAD soon!

Stay fresh y'all!

Kaylee

26 Days Later...

I don't know why it takes me so long to get back to this freaking blog. I completely blame Jon. I haven't been able to secure a job yet, but Jon has a second interview on Friday morning. Positive thoughts and vibes please! We could really use the money.

My mom and I have decided to sell my car and use the money to put down on a newer car. So if any of y'all are interested in a '96 Lexus with a few problems, please let me know!-_- I know the car I want but I'm nervous that my car won't get a bid or that no one will be interested. I mean it's a great car, it drives beautifully, and the A/C is God's gift to Texas, but there are just things wrong with it that I'm not able to fix, things I can't afford to fix.

We've also been looking at places for Jon. We're going to actually see with our eyes some places tomorrow. He found a 1 Bed/1 Bath for cheap and a studio that isn't too bad. We were really hoping to get in on his friends' duplex since they just moved into a bigger house, but his roommates have decided to go somewhere else, so he's left looking for somewhere cheap but comfortable.

Our eating habits haven't been too bad since I moved in, but not moving around much, or working, or even simply leaving the house has left the both of us gaining weight from laziness. This week we decided to start working out, but haven't started yet. But I feel positive we'll start soon. Neither of us are feeling good about ourselves, and I think that will help with motivation.

Okay, well that's all my news. Have a good night!

It's hard being green..

So today my boyfriend probably had the most adult experience of his life: he couldn't find his tax forms. They weren't on the computer, in his email, they weren't anywhere. So my suggestion? To ask his mom. Apparently that's the worst option of all time. He didn't want to ask her "again" because he felt as though he was "failing at being an adult." I didn't know what to say back to him for the longest time. Then the words came to me and I responded that he wasn't a failure and that it was his first time really being on his own. Then I said that he shouldn't feel ashamed to call his mom for help, cause I called mine crying at least once a week. After about ten minutes he triumphantly texted: "I FOUND THEM!! FUCK YEAH!!!" and everything was right in the universe once again.

But this whole situation got me thinking. Why are we so afraid of asking for help? As children we're encouraged to ask for help and to not be afraid to ask questions. At what point do we start to believe that it makes us immature and dumb to ask for anything?

I have the hardest time asking teachers for help. I know I do. But that comes from years of training myself that what I ask is stupid. Do other people do that too? Is it just instilled in us during junior high that we can't ask questions anymore?

This post is filled to the brim with questions maybe no one can answer. It's such a wonderful and big world we live in. It's our duty to get out there and find out everything we can about it. But we can't do that without asking questions or asking for help.

No one should feel ashamed to ask their mother for help because they lost something "again." No one should fear asking the teacher a questions, even if it's a simple one. They always say there are no stupid questions, but people will turn around and say that's stupid. But it isn't. Questions are important. Without questions there would be no scientific discoveries, we wouldn't know about cultures, or languages, or what's on the moon. Without questions we can't ask for help. Without help, we can't achieve anything.

No one is alone in this world. I'm making it my goal from now on to ask questions, even if I'm scared. It's my duty to educate myself and to help myself, and others, understand this world. I believe that no question is stupid.

No one should be afraid.