Classes... Tomorrow

Well I'm back at school. Yay..? My room looks cute (of course), and my roommate (Chey again) is still basically moving in. Classes begin tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it. I mean, my classes are fine, almost all of them are things I really want to take, but the problem is actually going to and sitting through classes. Of course I only have three classes and one of them is cancelled, but one of them is also a night class. For two hours. Ugh.

Also tomorrow we have our first sorority meeting. And like I said before, because of my night class, I won't be able to go to a lot of them. And tomorrow is the first example of that. I'll be able to meet with the executive board tomorrow before my class and get things done, but it's definitely not the same as actually sitting through a meeting with everyone and seeing them all again.

Saying goodbye to my mom was hard, like it always is, but she's already planning on coming and visiting soon. She also got to stay an extra night, which is amazing. But we aren't even able to talk because her phone bill wasn't able to get paid this month. Now we're just waiting for her to be able to pay it. I can't believe how much I already miss her and I just wanna be able to talk to her. Oh well, guess I'll just have to wait.

I think I missed Chey and Alex more than I thought I did. It's only the second day in and it's like the great times of last year all over again. Tonight we've laughed a lot, made great dirty jokes, and created a "Dirty Mind" headband. Mostly it's stayed on Alex's head, but once it almost made its way to my forehead. I think this might be a good year... besides, you know, classes.

Also, I posted this a day early so I wouldn't forget tomorrow.
Kaylee

Soon it Ends

I'll be leaving for school tomorrow and I'm so totally mixed up about it. While it's exciting to be headed back to Nac, and to see all my friends again, I'm definitely gonna miss home. It's hard being away from everybody, especially my mom. But at the same time, it'll be nice to be away from her for a little bit.

I had lunch with my brother, sister-in-law, and niece today. When we said our goodbyes I almost cried. Home is where my family is, and while I have a new family in Nac and a lot of friends, these are the most important people in my life. Split between my family, my friends, and my boyfriend, I wish I could us all on an island and pretend it's normal. I'm excited for dorm life, sorority, and school, I swear... but nothing beats sitting at home with my mom and Jon.

Speaking of, boyfriend and I have been on crazy terms recently. We've fought a lot. He started classes on Monday, and is working his new job. It's like I never talk to him anymore. It's been really hard trying to stay positive when I miss him so much and am feeling abandoned. He's decided I'm gonna drive out to him during labor day weekend. He said he'd pay for my gas so I couldn't help but agree. But god, I miss him so much. I cry almost every day because it's so hard being away from him. Every chance I get to see him I'm going to take. I can't wait for summer to come back around.

Hopefully getting a job in Nac won't take too long. I'm gonna apply to any and every place, especially places where I already have friends. I have to have a job this semester with mom and I having car payments and insurance. It's going to be hard and I have to put off theatre again, but I know I could use the job force experience.

When it comes to school, I'm most excited for my English class. While the topic isn't the best, I heard my teacher absolutely loves what he teaches, and he's amazing. That's really important to me when it comes to teachers. If they don't love what they do, or aren't visibly enjoying what they're teaching, I hate the class. I want someone to teach me who likes what they're doing, and better yet, adores it beyond anything. I guess I like that so much, because that's the kind of teacher I want to be. Nothing inspires students more, than the teachers who love what they're doing.

Y'all stay fresh y'all.
Kaylee

Fine.

That's how I feel. 

I feel fine. 

Not good, not bad, not angry, not even okay. 

I'm just fine. 

That's how it's going to stay. 

Time to Talk

Well I'm home. I've certainly missed it, especially my little puppy. It's great being home, but I'm sure gonna miss spending my summer with my boyfriend in our own little place. Jon is still home, at his mom's, but he'll be going back Wednesday morning with a moving truck and a bunch of furniture from his grandparents. I don't even know what I'm gonna when he leaves. He means so much to me and helps me out so much with my anxiety and my depression... It's just gonna be really hard not being by his side every day, like I was during the summer. I guess I just gotta learn to readjust all over again.

So I have a few weeks home before I gotta go back to school. Remember back in the day when I was trying to sell my car? Well... that didn't happen. So instead we started looking at dealerships online. Luckily I found one right away. It was a 2004 Honda, a hatchback like what I wanted, and looked super cute. It was also affordable for my mom and I. Unfortunately, it had over 150,000 miles and the dealership people weren't very friendly. But I did really like the car, so we started talking numbers. Well it turned out that the dealership wouldn't be willing to help us with financing, so as we sat waiting on the guy to bring us more information, I looked up another dealership.

This turned out to be a great idea. Online I found a 2003 Ford that was $200 cheaper and had almost 20,000 less miles. So we headed over to that dealer and test drove it . It was horrible. It was kinda small, it shook, and and the brakes were scary slow to stop the car. I hated it. I was scared to drive it when we took it out. So the guy took us around the lot to look at cars. My mom and I decided on the same one. It's a 2004 Dodge Durango. It's huge, it's pretty, and it only has 98,000 miles on it. The biggest problems with it were the price (almost $10,000) and gas mileage (14/19 -_-). However, after sitting down and talking numbers with this dealership, we not only got the price down, but the payments ended up being exactly $1 less than what mom wrote down that we could afford. Everything is turning out perfect, and if everything goes right, we'll be picking up the car tomorrow (Wednesday). So please send positive thoughts, vibes, and prayers.

Tomorrow I'll be saying goodbye to my love for over a month, I'll be starting a new journey with a new car, and I'll be taking time to start organizing and packing for college. Even though I don't want to do it, it's the best thing to do. Wish me luck as I start on my pile of stuff!

Peace out nerds;)
Kaylee