Classes... Tomorrow

Well I'm back at school. Yay..? My room looks cute (of course), and my roommate (Chey again) is still basically moving in. Classes begin tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it. I mean, my classes are fine, almost all of them are things I really want to take, but the problem is actually going to and sitting through classes. Of course I only have three classes and one of them is cancelled, but one of them is also a night class. For two hours. Ugh.

Also tomorrow we have our first sorority meeting. And like I said before, because of my night class, I won't be able to go to a lot of them. And tomorrow is the first example of that. I'll be able to meet with the executive board tomorrow before my class and get things done, but it's definitely not the same as actually sitting through a meeting with everyone and seeing them all again.

Saying goodbye to my mom was hard, like it always is, but she's already planning on coming and visiting soon. She also got to stay an extra night, which is amazing. But we aren't even able to talk because her phone bill wasn't able to get paid this month. Now we're just waiting for her to be able to pay it. I can't believe how much I already miss her and I just wanna be able to talk to her. Oh well, guess I'll just have to wait.

I think I missed Chey and Alex more than I thought I did. It's only the second day in and it's like the great times of last year all over again. Tonight we've laughed a lot, made great dirty jokes, and created a "Dirty Mind" headband. Mostly it's stayed on Alex's head, but once it almost made its way to my forehead. I think this might be a good year... besides, you know, classes.

Also, I posted this a day early so I wouldn't forget tomorrow.
Kaylee

Sorry

I know it's been quite a while since I last posted anything. Life has sent me through quite a lot of twists and turns recently. I somehow made it through my freshman year of college unscathed except by my own human stupidity. I won't reveal my grades, except for two: English and US History, in which both I got an A. So I'm very proud of those grades, though everything else makes them basically obsolete. I'm mad at myself, but I already went over that in another post.

So life is really hard right now. Just over a week ago I officially moved in with Jon for the summer. While it's been great being here, the trip here, the arguments, and the lack of jobs/money, hasn't been wonderful.

I was only an hour in on my trip down here when I hit something in the road and blew out two of my tires. The money I had earned working with my dad ended up going to pay for two new tires and a lugnut key for my tires since my original one was broken. Which everyone found surprising... but not me, because the car is almost 20 years old and falling apart. Nothing can be right on it.

The arguments have been plenty, however they're not nearly as bad as they could be. For the first week, we fought every day, but they've died down immensely. I'm happy here, with him and the kitty. Although there is a possibility of us having to move because his apartment people suck. Apparently, if you don't resign your lease immediately after they give notice (even if your lease isn't up until August), they open your room up for other people to move into at the beginning of the new lease cycle. It's very annoying. I just got everything moved in, and now we may have to pack everything back up again.

Jobs wise, I've applied to about 10 and am now just waiting and hoping for something to happen. His end of the search has been slower, but he did go out and apply at the movie theater. Please send good vibes and positive thoughts our way. I know I'd really appreciate it.

Well that's iIcan say for now. it's super late and I unfortunately do need sleep to process.

Sleep tight and stay fresh,
Kaylee

Hellooo

So Monday I went to the lake. A friend of mine was having a really tough time emotionally, so after classes, she invited me and a couple other friends out to the lake around Nac. I didn't wear a bathing suit so I didn't do any swimming, but she brought this little boat we aired up. For the first hour I sat on the bank, two girls in the boat, and our other friend who was keeping them from floating away. I didn't mind being alone. No phone to distract me, but I got to see everything. Sometimes I forget how much I love just watching, just seeing.

One of my biggest passions is photography. I think that passion has offered me insight into seeing beyond the skin of things. To really appreciate something, you have to look beyond its outward appearance. Life is about more than skin, it's about what's underneath, what's inside a person, or a thing. Of course I don't mean literally inside. The emotions, the feelings, the thoughts, the ideas. And with buildings, nature, objects, it's about what their story is. The process of making it. Their lives.

Sitting on that bank, I just watched my friends, the water, the sky, and I appreciated every single second of it. It's so liberating just watching. You don't have to think, you don't have to talk. I could spend my whole life just watching and seeing.

Anyway, on to more boring things. I have finals next week. This weekend I get to go see my best friend in Galveston. We're gonna spend the weekend on the beach, tanning and talking. I'm so excited for the rest weekend before all my finals kill me. I'm so not looking forward to this next week. I already know I've failed two classes and I feel like shit about myself because of them. I could have done so much better, tried harder in those classes, and I would've succeeded. Jon is suggesting I do online classes during the summer to retake them. I just might.

The best thing about school ending in a week is that I'll be home. I miss my mom and my family so much. And then after a week and a half, I'll be moving to San Marcos to live with Jon. I'm really excited to see what this summer will bring for us. It'll be our first time really living like adults. I'll also be looking for jobs. I've never had a PAYING job, only volunteer work and working construction for my dad. But that stuff doesn't have a place on an application, so employers won't look at me twice.

Speaking of jobs, if any of you guys know of places that are hiring in San Marcos, Texas, please feel free to email me. I could really use the help, the experience, and I'll need one cause I have to start saving to get a new car and pay off loans when I graduate. You can find my email on the About Me page.

Stay fresh, stay cool,
Kaylee

Back in Green

So last week was Spring Break. I spent half of it with my mom and half with Jon. It went by incredibly too fast, but it was still nice to get an entire week off from school and away from all the stress it brings. In just a week and a half, I will be at Jon's again for almost a week during Easter Break. And then the next weekend I'll be home again for my mom's birthday. Just a month after that, we will be completing finals and then school will be over and I'll be in the Austin area for the summer.

I could stay on campus for Easter Break, but it would end up costing more than just going to Jon's. Besides, if I don't see him then, I won't see him at all again until I move in for the summer. And that's not flying with me.

The week before Spring Break, we had midterms. I made 90 or above on every single one.. except for Algebra. I'm honestly worried about failing it, but it just doesn't click. I'd ask for a tutor, but there are none left this late in the school year and I can't compute what the teacher says, so seeing her isn't an option. I'm just praying for this semester to end on a good note. My goal was to get my GPA up, but I'm very worried Algebra is going to bring it way down.

On a brighter note, sorority stuff is going well. I'm feeling good about it and all the girls are so lovely. I definitely feel it was a good choice for me. Sometimes it feels like it's taking up too much time, but in the end, it'll be worth it.

Okay, well, that's all for now. Send positive vibes my way y'all.

Stay super cool and super fresh,
Kaylee