Back in Green

So last week was Spring Break. I spent half of it with my mom and half with Jon. It went by incredibly too fast, but it was still nice to get an entire week off from school and away from all the stress it brings. In just a week and a half, I will be at Jon's again for almost a week during Easter Break. And then the next weekend I'll be home again for my mom's birthday. Just a month after that, we will be completing finals and then school will be over and I'll be in the Austin area for the summer.

I could stay on campus for Easter Break, but it would end up costing more than just going to Jon's. Besides, if I don't see him then, I won't see him at all again until I move in for the summer. And that's not flying with me.

The week before Spring Break, we had midterms. I made 90 or above on every single one.. except for Algebra. I'm honestly worried about failing it, but it just doesn't click. I'd ask for a tutor, but there are none left this late in the school year and I can't compute what the teacher says, so seeing her isn't an option. I'm just praying for this semester to end on a good note. My goal was to get my GPA up, but I'm very worried Algebra is going to bring it way down.

On a brighter note, sorority stuff is going well. I'm feeling good about it and all the girls are so lovely. I definitely feel it was a good choice for me. Sometimes it feels like it's taking up too much time, but in the end, it'll be worth it.

Okay, well, that's all for now. Send positive vibes my way y'all.

Stay super cool and super fresh,
Kaylee

It's Been Awhile...

I know it's been a very long time. I keep thinking about posting but then I just couldn't find the inspiration to write. Things have been weird lately, but not in a bad way. So I guess now I'll share some updates:
1. Jon and I got to spend most of Christmas Break together and it was wonderful. I stayed with him for a week and I'm so looking forward to this summer! During the summer, we'll have been together for two and a half years. It's so crazy that we're almost to three years already.
2. I turned 19! Whoa, right?

3. I decided to rush a sorority and I made it! But I won't be initiated until the beginning of May.
4. Valentine's Day was wonderful. I went to visit Jon and we stayed in most of the weekend, only traveling out of his room for food.
Well that's all my news. I miss writing on this blog but things have been hectic since the new semester started. I'll do my best to remember I need to update this thing.

Be cool and stay neat,
Kaylie

These Times

I feel weird these days. I'm worried my depression is coming back, after three years of it being relatively on the back burners. I'm sleeping with absolutely no problem. I'm able to sleep for upwards for twelves hours without waking up more than once. And even though I feel hungry, sometimes I just can't bring myself to eat. I feel like there's no reason to or I just don't want to.

I can't even write sometimes. I'll start and then the inspiration will just abandon me completely. I don't even want to write sometimes, or read. I have a final essay due on Monday and I've completely lost my drive for it.

I can't tell Jon because he'll just get worried and overly concerned. Which isn't a bad thing, but then I feel like I need to cater and pamper him so he doesn't think I'll try anything bad.

I just wish I knew how to handle this on my own. Luckily my anger and anxiety have kinda been on the back burner since depression took front seat. I guess not being constantly angry and anxious makes up for feeling sad.

There are worst things in life.

Problems and Good Times

This weekend is my anniversary. Yay! I'm very excited to get to see Jon and spend an entire weekend with him. I can't believe it's already been over a month since I last saw him. It feels so long ago. I miss him so much but I'm so grateful for this weekend I get with him.

What I really came on here to blog about is my discovery of Bee and Puppycat. It's a really cute web show done by Cartoon Hangover and a story board artist from Adventure Time. I thought it was going to be really dumb and way inappropriate, but it's actually really cute. It's a story about a girl who can't keep a job and a magical cat (or puppy?) who falls out of the sky. There's only been like three episodes, including the pilot, but it's already really good.

Rising from the Dead... Basically

I don't know why I have such a commitment phobia for this freaking thing. I love it, I cherish, but then I forget it exists and it's just kinda like, "Sorry, not sorry."

Speaking of Buffy, I spent the weekend with my cousin. She turned 21 today! Woohoo, she can legally drink... not that that has ever stopped either of us before. But anyway, I spent Halloween weekend with my beautiful cousin whom I absolutely adore and miss every single day. She's growing up, she's renting an actual house, it's all put-together and nice. I'm telling you, this place is beyond adorable and just FILLED with things from Ross. A girl after my own heart. Her boyfriend and her moved into the place at the beginning of October and seem to be getting along nicely in it. She's definitely put her mark on it.

All weekend we just watched Halloweeny/scary movies, including The Omen, Final Destination V, Hocus Pocus, Scooby-Doo, and then Buffy, 'cause life ain't good without a little Vampire Slayer. It was a perfect weekend and I got to enjoy some nice beverages, veg out with cable TV, and spend time with my favorite cousin in the whole wide world. (And I have a lot of cousins.)

This week seems to mostly be focused on homework and trying to keep myself from spending my gas money. Next weekend is my anniversary (YAYY TWO YEARSSS!!!) so I'll be headed to see Jon and spend the weekend with him:) I'm expecting him to surprise me with a bubble bath, a fancy dinner, a back massage, some flowers, you know.. the works. I'm just so excited it's almost here and I get to fall asleep in his arms soon!

Okay, y'all, believe in the fresh and the fresh will believe in you.