I’m sitting in my towel, listening to the Panic! radio
station on Spotify, and contemplating life. Also I just sent out a really angst
worthy tweet questioning why we don’t do everything we can while we’re here. Which
is exactly what this post is going to be about. Except all about me, not the
human race.
Today, someone I went to high school with just announced she’ll
be starting Flight Attendant training soon. Congrats to her. And as I continued
scrolling through Facebook, I found another friend from high school who had
shared a super cute picture of her and a friend in their Attendant uniforms. I hadn’t
even realized she was a flight attendant, but now her posts from all over the
states and England make sense. Without thinking too hard about it, I sent a
message her way asking about what airline she worked for, and she graciously
responded she would send me an email later detailing the pros and cons about
the job. I shortly began researching what to do to become a Flight Attendant,
as well as taking a gander at the airlines that the girls work for.
Now you’re probably wondering, “You did this all in a towel?”
No, I didn’t. After starting my research, I took a break so I
could take a shower. During the shower I started thinking of the show Pan AM
and about how cute a book series I could make with a 50s/60s era flight
attendant and her adventures (her name is Annie and she signs her name with a
heart over the ‘i’). And then I started thinking about the research, which got
me excited cause research is awesome, and then my brain went, “What better research
is there than actually doing that job?”
I realized then why I had emailed my friend and why I was
doing research on the companies, and even why Annie was a thought in my head. I
want to do that. I want to see the world and the country and meets lots of
people and just travel. Maybe not as a flight attendant, but in some capacity.
Now it wasn’t some big epiphany, cause honestly, I’ve always
known I wanted to travel the world. But as I stood in front of the mirror and
settled my glasses back onto my nose, I questioned myself, “Why not do
everything while you can?”
Why not travel? Because I don’t have the money.
Well you just gotta work for a savings and you’re set.
Why not write a book? Because I’m not focused enough.
Set a word count or page amount for every other day, two
months later you could have half a book or a whole book.
Why not start a YouTube? I’m shy, I have nothing to say, no
one will watch me.
They all thought that and look how far some of them have
come.
Why not do the things you want?
Because I’m scared.
Ah. That’s why I won’t do everything I want. Because of
fear. But that can’t be an excuse forever.
College is very important to me, but so is living my life. All
I think about is finishing school so I can start my life, but why hasn’t it
already started? I’m 20 years old, I should have some great memories, and I do.
But not all the ones I want. I want so much more from this world, and I could
achieve it if I just tried.
I want to finish college someday. But maybe for now I should
just finish my associates and start chasing those dreams. I can write and
travel without a degree, I’ve known that forever, but I’ve been too afraid to
actually pursue it. Well now’s the time. Now is the time to start following and
chasing my dreams, anyway I can. No matter what it costs me.
But I have to ask my mom.
Kaylee
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